art of the plausible

Cut the crap

2010-03-23T02:58:00.003+08:00

Simpulan bahasa ini mungkin membawa maksud literal. Ia bermaksud melakukan sesuatu dengan otot2 di tempat tertentu untuk membuat sesuatu pada sesuatu benda yg melalui ruang tersebut.

Xyah fikir susah2 seperti let's cut the crap and get married. Sebab ia x ada kena mengena. Adekah kita mahu kahwin selepas kita cut the crap? Ape kate kita cuci dulu baru bercakap tentang perkara ni? Kerana aku x senang nak bercakap sambil tutup hidung. Membuat suaraku sengau.

Kerana aku mengantuk

2010-03-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

Aku masih di office. Orang tanya kenapa. Aku cakap sbb aku mengantuk, aku malas nak drive nanti aku tertido. Kenapa? X percaya? Hahaha.

Fact of the matter is, mmg aku malas nk balik sbb aku mengantuk.

Nasib baik Placebo x main nancy boy masa gig dia haritu :)

Return of the king

2010-03-11T11:31:00.004+08:00

Smalam aku tgk Messi ckp bahasa melayu dlm ESPN sportcenter. Lawak gila. Kenape kena buat alih suara mcm telenovela? "Dia x kenal erti penat dan sentiasa bersikap professional". OMG.

Anyway, after a few months, sure am glad to still be alive :) Aku da cancel trip aku ke hancuran sbb some things still needs my attention. Like the people with heartbreaks, people with hard brake ups, and of course people riding solo in a tandem.

So whats new?

Nothing is new :)

"a heart that hurts, is a heart that works" - Placebo

All I need

2009-10-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

E: u tgh buat apa?

Aku: takde buat apa, ada dalam kereta

E: oo. Gi mana tadi?

Aku: saja jalan2 je tak buat apa pun

E: nak gi mana ni?

Aku: skang ni tgh otw ke... hancuran

E: haa??

I'm not kidding. Ada kala aku rasa mmg aku diatas jalan yg menuju kehancuran. Sbb aku mmg suka main api. Entahlah. Jadi mari dengar lagu ini.

"I'm the next act

waiting in the wings

i'm an animal

trapped in your hot car

I'm all the days

you choose to ignore"

radiohead - all i need

It was supposed to last forever

2009-10-12T20:48:00.004+08:00

Berdepan dengan soalan patut ke tak patut, betul ke kita kena betul2 consider soalan tu? Would it be ok, just fine bila kita tak fikir terus soalan tu? Kan lebih mudah dan adventerous bila kita terus terus je boleh buat decision? Most of us are scared of losing something, we end up missing something which could've been better than the one we had. The one we loved, and left. The lights in my room flickered kejap masa aku tulis tu tadi. Whoah. Macam bersetuju dengan apa aku tulis. Haha.

Generalization is the keyword here. Ada 2 possible endings to things. For the better, or for the worse. Simple math would deduct 1 out of 2 possibilities as 50%, but when we put into account so many things that became the factor in the equation, our results would become clearer. Lets take an extreme example because things are put into perspective when they are at their extreme.

You are on a ledge, if u jump, there's only 2 possible ending. U might hurt yourself, or u won't. This depends, if u are on a 4 foot ledge, it could be 50-50. It will also depend on ur conditioning. If u're athletic, chances are better than if u're not. Put it on extreme, if u would have jumped from a 4,000 feet ledge, chances are 99% that u would hurt urself. And die. Are u still following me?

Why do people say 'falling' in love? Why can't we walk, climb, jump, abseil, glide or slide into it? Why do people say 'grow' out of love? This is a connotation that I will never understand.

My friend told me, in the words of her wise father; 23-24 is the best age for a girl to marry. At this time u are still naive, and scared of the world. U're unsure whether u would survive out here. When u're 25, u're used to have it all alone. U know u'd survive the world by urself. U can afford ur house, car and whatever u need. That will create a resistance to marriage, and to love. Because u are already independent. So girls, it sucks to be u and 25 and single. Haha. Aku x sure betapa benarnye kata2 dia tu. Tapi aku quote balik je.

Ok fikir balik, there are only 2 possible outcome. Either u get hurt, or u won't. Either u like it, or u don't.

Itu je. Kan? Simple.

Anyway, here's some randomness:

In my head there's 1012 photos I'd more than love to slide thru again :)

Oh ye untuk sora, ini la gilfren jepun aku tu.

We used to be in love, but now we are in hate

2009-09-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

Haha title nak gempar je.

Selamat hari raye sume! Ape cerita menarik utk raya korg tahun ni? Ada yg beraya bersama kekasih baru tak?? Kalau tak, haa biar aku cerita kes aku beraya dgn awek jepun ku. Hehehe. Switt sgt kan aku ada awek jepun.

Ah xde mood plak. Nanti aku edit balik la post ni. Tata for now.

Earworms v2.

2009-09-09T10:25:00.001+08:00

Gila smalam aku xtau nape aku tertido lepas makan malam sampai pagi sahur. 8.30pm-4.30am tanpa gangguan. fuh. takde mimpi pulak tu. segar gila aku rasa. mungkin penat kot hari sebelum ni x tdo betul2. tp whatever the case, gembira betul dpt tido dengan aman. Sorry ah tsha lina sume korg mesej aku tak reply sbb aku tdo. Hahaha.

topik aku harini: earworm. Benci kan bila lagu2 bukan2 tersangkut kat dlm kepala. Pastu pulak, lagu2 yg melekat tu bukan la lagu yg best pun. Lagu sume yg tah ape ape mcm lagu numa numa gay porn tu. OMG numa numa bukan sahaja earworm. I can see the video in my head!! DAMN U GAY PORN!!! huh. takpe sbb aku dah ada remedy utk semua earworm. Nk tau?

Aku guna earworm yg lebih awesome dari semua earworm yg aku pernah kena. Hahaha. Kadang2 aku tensi gak dengar lagu hey hey hey hey aku tak percaya cinta si liyana jasmay nyanyi tu. Annoying gila kan? Baik aku dengar lagu stacy ke, lagu rossa yg hey ladies tu ke, kan? Srsly, hey hey hey hey mmg out. Sib baik laa aku ada earworm yg perfect. Hehee... Lagu ni. Bersedia utk infected.

Ketchup song.

"Aserejé, ja deje dejebe tudejebe de
sebiunouva majabi an de bugui an de buididipí (3 times)"

sorry aku copy paste lirik tu. dan juga sorry i had to do it. bila korg baca lirik tu mesti korang dah terbayang lagu tu kan. And skarang susah nak kuarkan dari kepala korg. hehee. Enjoy~
heheh.

Birthday aku yang paling boring skali dalam 25 tahun

2009-09-08T09:56:00.005+08:00

Sebagai pembuka kata, sila layari www.kickstart.com.my/chilllah dan vote cerita aku yg bertajuk "the lark key morning" supaya aku leh menang cash RM2000 dan belanje korg semua minum. Siape2 nak buat request gila seperti seluar dalam warna kuning matahari pun boleh dipertimbangkan.

So harini pagi2 aku da call agent aku "dude, where's my car??" dia belom dpt bagi jawapan yg membrangsangkan. Aku ingat nak belikan diri sendiri sebuah kereta sebagai hadiah harijadi, tapi nampaknye belated lah ni. Btw, dah 8hb dah ni, aku still lom dpt ape2 hadiah (kecuali dari awan smalam yg agak sweet cuba bagi aku senyuman dari webcam sebagai hadiah harijadi, which is appreciated btw) atau kek lagi. Siannye aku.

Yg paling skali ialah ofismet2 ku. Tiap2 bulan aku watkan kek utk June babies - July babies - August babies, tapi birthday aku diorang lupa?? OMG. Sibaik aku x wat kek sendiri. That wud be so uncool. Apa apa pun, kira ok laa lepak minum ngan housemate2 ku lepas futsal sempena besday aku. Siape suruh takde gilfren kan dah padan muke kau.

Tapi perkara yang cool ialah, jaket yg ku beli utk diri sendiri (dengan bantuan dari shikin) sampai pade hari yg terbaik - 3 sept! Haha. So malam tu aku melaram la ngan jaket baru aku yg hensem jenama Arsenal tu. Ok la not bad la kan. Jap aku post gambar.

Then esoknye mcm biasa lah family aku. Mak aku masak ketam masak lemak superb gila, aku pun beli piza belambak2, adik aku Aina belanje kek besar, aku pun invite la hosmet aku makan kat rumah. Pastu diorang sume gi main futsal. Natam. Aku dengan takde geng nak celebret lagi dah pastu, gi tgk muvi ngan zie. Cerita yg adoiyaih boring jugak lah. FD4. Takyah tengok ok. Aku gi tgk, pastu balik rumah aku jap tinggal kereta b4 kwn aku amik dan hantarkan dia balik.

Pade yg curious, zie ni pun kwn aku dah lama so don't get any funny ideas. Oh thanks zie for buying me coffee at starbux :) Ada juga rupenye prezen aku tahun ni. Jap biar aku listkan.

1. Ketam masak lemak by Bonda tersayang
2. Kek (what's her name) by Adikku Aina
3. Iced caramel macchiato by Zie
4. Awan senyum2 by Awan.
5. And all the birthday wishes walaupun aku dah tukar tarikh harijadi aku kepada 9 april!!! (in case no one gets this, april 9 is 04/09 in US punya format)

Hehee. Ok jap sebelum publish aku nk masukkan gambar. Tp aku rasa masukkan gambar pada saat ini akan ruin the formatting. Cancel ah! Ok semua enjoy your puasa!!

Kelam / kabut

2009-09-07T14:54:00.003+08:00

Woohh lamanya tidak menulis. Sampai terlupa kena tekan font verdana kat tepi tu sebelum type (kenapa aku tak set je default = verdana?). So anyway...... for the past month or so, wpun aku nampak mcm dah hilang interest menulis / membaca, sebenarnye aku bizi gila. Hahaha. Bizi buat apa? Ce teka.

Ok tak payah teka. Meh aku ceritakan.

Bizi membuat kerja ialah bizi nombor 1. Tak pernah aku kerja ngan company yg sgt fast paced mcm nih. Pastu pulak, tak pernah lagi aku kerja dalam position yg pegang final chokepoint utk project launch. Mati mati mati tiap tiap kali diorang nk launch. Fuh. On the mr.Brightside, tinggal berape launch je lagi pastu dah tukar projek lain. Tp on the not so mr.Brightside, kalau tukar projek, maksudnye tukar role? Dengar ura2 ada bunyik kata diorang nak buat team lain yg boleh wat kerja aku. Aku pun x la buta... Dah 3 kali aku kena train / pass knowledge kat team lain pasal kerja aku. Jadi aku rasa, diorang ni kot yg akan amik alih tugas aku. Hrmmmmmm. Korg rasa?

Bizi nombor dua ialah bizi berkawan dgn kawan2 baru / lama / re-united. Hahaha. Betul ke ni? Kalau kau kerja 12 jam sehari 12 hari berturut2, boleh lagi ada masa nak berkawan? Boleh, kalau kawan2 baru itu dari ofis yg sama. Betul betul betul. Kebetulan kawan2 baru dan lama ni diorang kaki wayang. Jadi ok la at least skarang ada geng balik nk kuar tgk muvi. Dan kwn2 baru ni, diorang duk x jauh dari rumah so diorang willing nk amik / hantar balik rumah. Lalala. Ye la aku belom ada kereta lagi. Huhu. Mungkin minggu ini.

Bizi nombor tiga ialah kerja weekend aku yg aku patut update di blog yg satu lagi yg dedicated untuk kerja part time itu kan. Ye lah ye lah nanti aku update ye.

Tapi itu semua macam perkara2 general. Benda2 yg lebih detail ialah seperti dibawah.

Aku tak suka berkecil hati, tapi bila orang tak reply msg kau / call balik dengan alasan busy sgt pastu boleh post di facebook ceritakan aktiviti bershopping dia, then kau pun tahu la terlalu busy untuk reply msg kau ialah "mengalami kehidupan". Mungkin org kata tak perlu berkecil hati, tapi bagi aku, kalau org tu takleh cari 1 minit dari 24x60 minit 1 hari utk reply, tapi sempat pegi shopping, buka facebook utk ceritakan apa yg dibeli waktu bershopping tadi, mungkin dia just don't care. Why pretend. So ini satu benda.

Aku rasa banyak sangat aku buang masa. Jadi aku pun keluar la dgn orang2 lain. 1 in particular, ada seorang yg menjadi kegilaan ramai muda mudi di tempat kerja. Comel sgt die ni. Tp aku lupa, bila orang itu menjadi pojaan, biasanya diorang akan hidup dlm bubble. (tak faham2 lagi ke dari dulu?). Orang yg hidup dalam bubble ni diorang dah biasa utk dimanjakan, biasa dengan orang belanja, biasa dengan mendapat hadiah hari2, biasa dengan orang kata yg terbaik tentang diorang. Sbb orang tak suka ckp benda yg tak elok dan menyinggung perasaan mereka2 ni, jadi diorang oblivious terhadap perkara2 yg diorang buat yg hurtful to others. Aku pun satu sengal. Asyik2 jumpa org dari type ni. Perlu berpijak dunia nyata, cari orang yg grounded sket. So end up aku mula losing interest just as i was about to build up interest. Mungkin gak aku tak reti2 nak lupakan fina. Bebawak la kan. Dia tak suke kau la gile.

Ok la panjang pulak aku membebel. Pesanan2 terakhir,

Nurul Aain = selamat berFYP!!
Ashratul = 16 sept aku tulis dah kat kalendar aku.
Tisha = Weh tisha ko balik kampung buat la biskut aku x pernah rase biskut / kek kau.
Ujie = Jgn la balik nnt kau bau mcm kibas.
Diha = Happy birthday to us (oh ini satu lagi benda nak cerita. Next post lah)
Juzlam = Selamat berpuasa sebagai bapa :)
Diyana = when u've hit rock bottom, things can only go up!

Ok sape lagi ek bace belog aku nih.
Ayn = Harap2 kau suka album kau :)
Dominiq = Kenapa masuk hospital haritu? <<< ini bukan pesanan ni.
Awan = Ah sudah la kau kata geng sangat birthday aku pun kau lupa.

Hehee. Selamat berpuasa semua!!

End of message

2009-08-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

dearest heartless,

goodbye.

My new gadget

2009-08-03T12:33:00.000+08:00

Heheheeeeeee. Checkout my new gadget :D I have an electric mixer nao! I dun need to beat using my hands anymore :D Which means.... fluffier ganache! better cake! and I can now make creamcheese frosting woohooo!!! WHUDDUP?

Perfect english

2009-07-16T08:03:00.003+08:00

Please read this.

"People are strange when u're a stranger,
faces look ugly when u're alone,
Women seem wicked when u're unwanted,
Streets are uneven when u're down"
the doors - people are strange

Red itu kaler hati

2009-07-07T07:45:00.003+08:00

This pre-loved baby is up for grabs this week. Its a Vaio VGN-CR35G. Specs as below.

Oh tp apelah guna aku letak specs yg technical. Baik aku kasi je specs dia dalam bahasa yg korang faham.

Processor: Centrino core 2 Duo 2.10Ghz maksudnya not bad laa speed dia.
System Bus: 800mhz, Memory Bus: 667mhz, Cache memory: 3MB. Not baddddd; not bad at all kan??
Pastu lagi ada 200GB S-ATA 5400rpm hard disk, 2GB DDR2 SDRAM, dan Ati-Mobility Radeon x2300 128MB.
Itu je la yg org biasanye nak tahu. Tapi kalau mahu tahu lebih lanjut, gi sini..

http://www.sony.com.my/product/vgn-cr35g/sku/vgn-cr35g_r+e1

Ok skarang sedikit info pasal laptop ni.
Body cantik, kulit licin tp ade la calar2 sket (normal wear and tear), tak suka bersukan, selalu conscious pada apa yg org fikir tentang dia.. EH INI INFO PASAL PREVIOUS OWNER DIA!!

Alah laptop dia pun lebih kurang begitu. Jadi skarang kamurang tau laptop ini previously owned by seorang gadis cantik. Siapa dia jgn tanye. Korang kena beli melalui aku. Heheee.

Harga bukak RM3500. Offer la kalau ade minat. (Harga tak include owner skali)

Komen dari aku: Kalau aku ada duit, aku tak letak iklan die ni kat sini. Aku beli je dari dia. Comel gila laptop ni.

Melayan tag diyana

2009-07-01T22:07:00.004+08:00

1. Anda rasa anda hot?

- With this weather, is that even a serious question? :P

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?

- Sbb ini dlm gambar ini, the subject dan dunia ialah dalam keadaan songsang, tp kalau kita tgk muka dia, dia happy. So being upside down is not necessarily unhappy.

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?

- Hmm.. last month kot. Ke bulan 5 sbb masa tu Chelsea lawan Everton ek final FA cup, then masa tu boring sgt saya pun order Dominos online.

5. Lagu terakhir yg anda dengar?

- Damien Rice - the blower's daughter

6. Apa yg anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

- Sedang chatting sama zekereli a.k.a asswipe.

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan nama apa?

- b)

8. tag lagi 5 org?

- Thom Yorke
- Quentin Tarantino
- Bijoux
- Zekereli
- Hiro Nakamura

9. Siapa no.1 pada anda

- idola

10. Org no 3 ada hubungan dengan sesiapa?

- ada, faliq nama dia.

11. Katakan sesuatu tentang org no 5.

- ok tapi mungkin korg takkan percaya. dia boleh bend time

12. Bagaimana pula dgn org no 2?

- Dia buat movie2 yg otai!

13. Pesanan kepada no 4.

- Hmm... oi mari pegi bercuti lagi.

Ok itu sahaja untuk rancangan hari ini. Harap semua ok ok sahaja. Pisaut.

Appreciation

2009-06-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

Silent appreciation doesn't mean much.
Silent recognition isn't much use to anyone.
A person will more readily accept your reasoning when you show recognition and appreciation for the things he or she says and does.

- Robert Mayer

my subway experience

2009-06-08T20:14:00.003+08:00

Helo semua. Tghari tadi bersembang sama permaisuri roket (rocket queen seperti yg tertulis di sidebar sana). Sembang2 kita agree untuk lunch subway tapi bukan lunch bersama, lunch di tempat lain2 dan ceritakan tentang makan tengahari itu.

So sy siap2, wangi2 sume, keluar la pegi stesen LRT berdekatan (stesen dirahsiakan untuk mengelakkan diri menjadi mangsa stalker.. ceh PERASAN MACAM LA ADA ORG NAK STALK KAU!!) pastu dah sampai stesen, nak beli tiket, tertinggal wallet dirumah. Berpeluh seperti ahli sukan gymnast dalam larian ketiga, sy pulang untuk mengambilnya. Calculation seperti dibawah:

1 trip ke stesen = 15 minit. patah balik, pegi balik = 3 trip.

3 trip x 15 minit = 45 minit membuang masa untuk berjalan2. Kalau kita dinasihatkan eksesais 30 minit sehari, sy dah lulus sbb sy berjalan tu kalau awk semua ingat, waktu tengahari.

Ok teruskan, sy pergi ke stesen Setiawangsa, then naik cab pegi AU2. Tiada hal menarik yg boleh dijadikan cerita buat masa ini.

Sy order mcm biasa lah bila pegi subway: today's sandwich. Hari isnin untung sbb hari isnin ialah hari Italian BMT yg berharga RM12.50 pada hari biasa, harini RM7.50!! Wohoo! Sila lihat gambar ini dan salivate.

My usual BMT ialah Hearty Italian + all the works + tomatoes + sos cili. Sangat tidak ada imajinasi kan?? Pastu minum air mineral bajet healthy sbb makan kat subway.

Ada seorang kakak yg pakai platform warna oren. Rasa macam nak suruh polis fesyen memberikan tahanan reman pada dia.

Ok lepas tu pergi ke supermarket membeli barang2 membuat brownies.
Hari ini ialah Choc fudge Brownies + walnuts + cream cheese topping. Ada org panggil sy fruitcake eleh jeles la tu sbb dia gadis yg tidak mahir didapur.

Melihat brownies didalam ketuhar dan bila membuka untuk cek kandungan, wap akan keluar mengotori cermin mataku.

Cream cheese: ingredient utama ialah Philadelphia Cream Cheese dari Kraft.

Resipi masih dirahsiakan buat masa ini. Esok kalau ofismate gembira, sy akan share resipi.

Oh ini pula shiro. Kucing saya. Shiro cakap hai kat diorang!! Kacak kan dia?

My wishlist

2009-06-07T04:22:00.002+08:00

I need bookmarks. At least 5 of em.
*hint hint*

Confessions of a shopaholic

2009-06-05T08:11:00.007+08:00

I have a confession to make. I am a shopaholic.

Semalam pulang awal dari kerja sebab nak pegi KLCC. Niat asal ialah untuk pergi ke Kino mencari 2 buku ini.

"Who moved my cheese" by Dr Spencer Johnson

"Secrets of the Millionaire mind" by T. Harv Eker

Tapi... KINO KAU MEMANG PANDAI SUSUN BUKU!!!!
Masuk2 kedai dia dari entrance yg tengah tu ada pula section yg bertajuk "gems of the month" yg buku dari section ini mendapat diskaun 25%. OMG 25%

Sy pun pandang dengan muke "eleh 25% je bukan ade buku nk cari pun" tp eh eh kenapa tajuk buku ni menarik sangat??

"KLUGE: the haphazard evolution of the human mind" by Gary Marcus

Mcm menarik tajuk dia, pegang jap lah nanti kalau ada calon2 mak mertua lalu kat sini diorang akan bagi sy markah tambahan kerana membaca buku yg tajuknya sofistikated.

Jalan2 sket lagi tgk apa ni semua buku cerita buku novel semua tak berminat. Pastu jumpa pulak buku yg dah lamaaaaaaa sgt nak, tp lupa nak cari setiap kali berada di kedai buku.

"Happy for no reason" by Marci Shimoff

ADA STICKER 20% KAT BUKU NI OMG!!! Pegang kejap lah. Nanti kalau tak ada buku yg sy mahukan itu, sy beli la buku ni.

Pastu jalan pegi kat row self-help tu sbb sy tahu 2 buku yg sy cari tu ada disana. Fikir2 mcm nk tgk direktori je supaya senang dapat buku2 tu, tp rase mcm "alah cari sendiri la sambil2 leh tgk buku apa yg ada" pastu cari punya cari jumpa la mcm2 title yg menarik, tp x cukup menarik lagi. Then jumpa who moved my cheese. So skarang ada 3 buku dalam tangan. Cari2 lagi terpandang buku

"How to win any argument (without raising your voice, loosing your cool, or coming to blows.)" by Robert Mayer.

By then sy tahu yg sy perlu cepat2 cari buku yg sy datang nak cari tu OR ELSE. Sy pegi kat kaunter mintak diorang carikan buku tu. Sambil2 tunggu tu terpaksa memekakkan telinga dan hati sbb byk buku lain memanggil2. Sabar... sabar... KAU TU ADA BUDGET!!!

Then bila buku tu sampai, terus pegi kat kaunter, letak kat Maybank skali. Amik kau sekali 5 buku ha beli. Ingat leh dapat members card ke dengan membeli banyak2 tp tak dapat pulak. So all in all tolak apa diskaun sume, dapat la 5 buku dgn harga RM224.60. Ok la kot average 1 buku tu RM46 sahaja. Fuh terus cepat2 keluar. Bahaya betul tempat ni. Then jumpa kwn2 yg lama tak jumpa, and since start kerja ni tak pernah belanja diorang lagi so belanja diorang minum lah. T_T

Malam pulak gi beli benda2 berikut.
Nikon D80 (belum ada nama mari cari nama yg menarik untuk dia)
18-135mm f/3.5-5.6
50mm f/1.8
2 UV + 1 polarizer
Crumpler pretty boy xxxl warna putih.

Jadi hari ini telah habis total yg sama dengan gaji sy sebulan.. Tapi takpe sbb semua benda yg dibeli hari ini akan add value kepada diri sendiri dan ilmu itu akan kekal lebih lama dari baju2 berjenama atau kasut plastik yg overpriced.

Mungkin sy memerlukan bookshelf baru??

P/s: cadangan nama yg sy ada utk dia ialah "theodore". Agak lame jadi bantulah sy memilih nama untuk dia ok! Selamat hari jumaat semua!

How to be happy in 3 simple steps

2009-06-04T14:48:00.002+08:00

Ok guys, lesson for today. How to be happy in 3 simple steps.

1. Smile more
2. Talk to a stranger
3. Take a chance

Good luck all =)

A guy's guide for making cupcakes

2009-06-02T10:55:00.004+08:00

Ok title itu sengaja buat mcm tu sbb apparently, me and my rakan seguru (cik nurul) membuat cupcakes dengan cara yg berbeza walaupun belajar dari cikgu yg sama. Mula2 kena bagi disclaimer: Cik Nurul lebih hebat dalam arena pembuatan cupcake sbb dia buat frequently. Sy cuma baker separuh masa (atau lebih tepat baker bila rasa nak buat cake atau dipaksa oleh boss).

Petikan dari berbualan dgn boss minggu lepas. Oh dia itu org perancis jadi conversation dijalankan dalam bahasa ibunda ku (English). Mungkin ada yg tak puas hati kenapa sy kata English is my mother tongue, tapi sy dah biasa org x puas hati. Hmpfh. Hahahaha all jokes aside, sy nak share perbualan tu.

Perbualan mengambil tempat 2 hari selepas saya menghidangkan Orange Cake dengan frosting chocolate yg super-sinful.

Henrique: Hey where's my cupcake?
Me: Err.. I cannot make the cupcake. My mixer is broken.
Henrique: What kind of an excuse is that? Haven't u heard of TESCO??
Me: Okay sir, I'll buy a new mixer and bring walnut cupcakes to the office on monday.
Henrique: Sure I got these 2 witnesses (sambil memandang kepada 2 org yg berada di tempat kejadian). Make sure u bring them ok.

So begitulah perbualan tgh2 minggu. Ahad lepas sy meminjam mixer dari Cik Nurul (pinjam mixer dengan tuan punya badan skali aku pinjam) dengan nozzle dan semua peralatan membuat cupcake. Hahaha tq.

Ok ok korang bace sebab nak resipi kan? Sini sy share resipi versi lelaki. Bukan versi cikgu atau cik Nurul.

Cupcake:
1 cup gula
2 cup tepung gandum (tambah separuh sudu kecil serbuk penaik dan separuh sudu kecil natrium karbonat) Note: Aku pun x sure 2 benda ni same ke lain sbb aku lelaki aku lelaki aku x amik port bende2 camni.
1 blok buttercup 250g
4 biji telur Note: JANGAN GUNA TELUR DARI DALAM PETIAIS. gunekan telur yg suhu bilik.
Serbuk koko secukup rasa (betul aku main rasa2 ikut hati je)

Ok camane nak buat?

1. Mule2 grind gula tu halus2, pastu campakkan dalam 1 bekas.
2. Tepung dimasukkan dalam bekas lain bersama serbuk penaik dan natrium. Jangan masukkan sama bekas ngan gula tu.
3. Campak sebuku butter dalam gula tadi dan pukul menggunakan mixer atau tangan. Pukul sampai sebati ok. Nanti dia jadi warna putih menandakan dia sudah ready.
4. Pastu masukkan telur 1 by 1 sambil mix. Dah siap? Skarang prepare coklat pulak. Serbuk koko tadi campur air panas, dan kacau sampai larut malam.
5. Kemudian tuangkan dalam adunan tadi dan pukul lagi. Bajet2 dah sebati tu, campurkan tepung kedalamnya. JANGAN PUKUL TEPUNG INI!!! Penting ok sbb dah masukkan serbuk penaik tadi.
6. Skarang campurkan tepung bersama adunan dengan lemah lembut. Belai je dia sampai cantik.

Ok your mixture is ready. Harap2 korang dah panaskan oven dari tadi wpun sy mcm lupa nk bagitau. Suhu dia ialah 170, baking time selama 20 minit (lebih kurang halal lah, kalau dah 15 minit tu cube cucuk kalau bersih, dah siap la tu).

Hah penatnya. Tunggu jap 15-20 minit tu dan kek korang sudah redi. Skarang untuk Icing pula!!

Sila google cemana nk buat icing sbb sy mmg hampeh.

Selamat membuat cupcake rakan2!!

berpura2 house-husband

2009-05-31T16:09:00.001+08:00

Ok rakan2 petang ini mahu buat cupcakes perisa hazelnut. Harap2 berjaya. Ok wish me luck nnt post gamba. eh kamera takde. Ah post bau je lah!

selamat tinggal mei 2009

2009-05-31T11:12:00.010+08:00

Hello kawan2. Sile maafkan aku kerana tidak mengupdate blog sejajar pada perubahan yg berlaku sehingga menyebabkan sesetengah pade kamu gagal menjawab kuiz "how well do u know kepen hafriz orwadever di facebook". Juga maafkan jika kamu merindui karangan2 dan post bergambar dariku sejak 12 hb mei yg lepas (haiceh bajet la tu org nk rindu tgk updet dia padehal org bace belog kau sbb bos diorang tak bagi kerja atau membuang masa sambil menunggu kek yg diletakkan didalam oven utk siap mana timer tak bunyi2 lagi ni?)

Ok. Semua ok? Gud. Mari move on.

Pertama skali, aku nak bagitau sile notis perubahan title dan banner blog ini.

Kedua. Sekarang sudah mencapai pertengahan tahun, jadi mungkin waktu yg bagus untuk kita review resolusi tahun baru kita kan. MARI!! hahaha semangat sungguh aku.

No.1 : Untuk mengembara dengan menaiki kapal terbang ke 4 destinasi (kan ini hint untuk kuiz fazebook itu? Sebab untuk naik kapaterbang ialah merentasi lautan jadi jawapan kepada destinasi percutian pilihan ialah pulau kecil)

Status : Hmpfh. Baru 1 kali pegi bercuti luar dari KL tahun ini ke Tioman itu hari. Tapi ada perancangan untuk bercuti pade waktu terdekat ini sbb... sy ada voucher 2 hari 1 malam di Holiday Villa Langkawi!!! Tak perlu kau nak sengih2 shikin. Ayat kau yg seterusnya "hampeh kepen" dan diikuti dengan "aww u're so cute~" untuk meng-annoy aku. Sudah lah. Aku x suke penggunaan cute untuk lelaki.

Hah ini la die gamba Holiday Villa Langkawi tu. Nak pegi sekarang je rase.

No.2 : Oh oh status ini sudah di revise kepada "To not own a car and a house". Bunyi macam senang bukan?

Status: Buat masa ini masih on track kerana aku BELUM membeli rumah dan/atau kereta. Tapi nampak mcm sukar aje nak meneruskan 7 bulan berikut tanpa kenderaan sendiri :( besnye kalau ade vios hitam. Muehehehe.

eh apa ni?? Ini bukan vios. Ini Silvia. Huah nak sangat pakai bende alah ni.

No.3 : To be fitter and lose 5kg.

Status: Urm... urmm... Masa aku tulis tu, believe it or not berat aku 72kg SAHAJA jadi target weight aku ialah 67kg. Tapi, dalam 4 bulan pertama, aku bukan turun 5kg, aku NAIK 3kg FTW!! Tapi skarang aku dah turun balik 3kg tu dan kembali pada 72kg TERIMA KASIH HERBALIFE DAN JUGA KERJA YG MENIMBUN!! So back to square one. Aku masih perlu lose 5kg. Good luck aku.

Sekian update tentang resolusi tahun ini. Jadi skarang update tentang perkara2 yg berlaku pada dan disekitar aku. 24/05/2009 -

First day aku sebagai pekerja permanent di Dell Cyberjaya, working with the Channel Project Team yg memenangi anugerah CIO Wohoo!!
Membawa Kek Orange + chocolate frosting yg dibuat dengan penuh kasih sayang pada hari ahad sebelumnya ke ofis. Mixer rosak, kena pukul pakai tangan je penat sangat tahu tak? Nasib baik sedap dan semua org gembira tp skarang diorang expect aku bwk kek setiap hari isnin haih mau bankrap aku mcm ni takpe bos kalau kau nk kek lagi kau kena up gaji aku. (u wish)

22/05/2009 -

Mendapat offer bertulis dari company tempat ku bekerja, finalize semua requirement dan what not. Oh Em Gee lupa nak pegi buat account EPF. Sori ye kwn2 sy baru pertama kali bekerja secara serius jadi agak jakun.
Selamat hari jadi kepade cik yg pandai ckp telefon dgn sy (pecah rekod paling lama bercakap telefon dgn sy yg sebelum ini dipegang oleh puan Kimi pada 65 minit)

15/05/2009 -

Mula menggunakan produk herbalife setelah melihat dan mendengar testimonial dan berazam untuk menurunkan berat badan. Ok dengan tak malunye mari sy share maklumat berat dan ukuran sy. Berat: 75kg Pinggang: 32 Perut: %$#hgj

12/05/2009 -

Menerima bungkusan yg dipenuhi kegembiraan (refer post sebelum ini)

07/05/2009 -

Selamat hari jadi pada kawan baik yg tinggal beribu kilometer jauhnya di seberang lautan.

Fuh panjang ya amat entri kali ini siapa baca sampai titisan darah terakhir aku belanja banana split.

Packaged received

2009-05-12T09:36:00.006+08:00

Look what i got in the mail today :)

Total of 8 wristwatches, 5 belongs to CikWan

Ini pula bahagianku.

Jam tangan Guess dengan real Diamond (jakun sbb x pernah pakai diamond)

Ni pulak jam Nautica yg serba lengkap ngan tachymeter dan sebagainya. Berat gila jam ni.

Ini jam yg agak kasual dgn tali kulit looks more impressive in real life ok!

Ini pula earphone BOSE yg oh kalau bukan sbb menang aku xkan beli sbb harge die mencecah RM500 FTW. Bersama buku Digital Photography volume 1.

Ini pula...

Hahaha. Tak tak. Masrina tak datang dalam pakej ni. Mampus berat gile kotak nk letak die skali. Wei kau jgn marah org buat lawak ngan gambar kau.

Aku nak jual semua diatas (kecuali buku Digital Photography dan Masrina). So sile la name me your price :)

P/s: sy dah jual Nokia 5800XM sy, skarang sy pakai e66. Ini semua gambar yg diambil dgn e66 sy.

Dragon Island

2009-04-24T00:17:00.004+08:00

No sunblock, no lotions, no nothing but time, wind and 3 other mofos.
It's midnite and it's time to drive. See u guys on monday =)

"its been a long time since i rocked and rolled,
its been a long time since i did the stroll,
let me get it back, let me get it back,
let me get it back baby where i come from"
led zepp - rock n roll

Take care Kuala Lumpur

dongeng

2009-04-21T08:26:00.003+08:00

"*&$# u kepen" - sms dari kwn aku
"Yo. apehal?"
"Aku xtau pun kau !@$* ngan amira" - of course Amira bukan nama sebenar tp aku suka nama tu.
"Wahlawei. Aku pun xtau. Nice one la aku. Siapa cerita ni?"
"Amira cerita kat bini Hashim, Hashim cite la kat aku" - once again, Hashim bukan nama sebenar.

Aneh, aku x tahu aku bermain dalam imaginasi mereka. No wonder some people I don't even know hates me.

"they love me like i was their brother
they protect me, listen to me
they dug me my very own garden
give me sunshine, make me happy"
radiohead - nice dream

Paint it black

2009-04-08T10:52:00.003+08:00

I've got two of these last week. Aku rasa bulan march aku bertuah sgt sbb aku dpt buat benda2 yg aku sepatutnya x mampu buat dgn gaji ciput aku. Tp tak perlu nak ulang lagi benda2 tersebut nnt kang korg kate aku berlagak pulak tp aku mmg rasa bersyukur sgt weih. Tiket 1 lagi tu ada kat Akbar si kucing. Puas ati pegi wpun hujan turun sejurus selepas 10 minit aku disana. Haih.
Ini la pemandangan dari tempat aku tgk tu. Ni gamba dari fon kemenangan. Heheheh. Kat sini la aku "WOOO COME ONN SAUBERRRR!!!" pastu tak abis jerit die terbabas kat koner depan tu. Aku pasti driver tu bukan eksiden sbb terkejut dgr suare aku menjerit2. Pastu malam pulak gi layan budak Jamiroquai yg akan mencecah 40 pada perkiraan umur tahun ini.
Budak Jamiroquai nih die mmg best. Byk shot aku malam tu yg nampak muka dia, tp aku lebih suka gambar ni. Tah nape. Budak2 depan aku takleh blah. Bak kate simi "Nok minum aghok sangat!". Budak2. Tak tahu apa2. Minum bir 1 tin kongsi ramai. Mungkin die rase die best bile die minum bir. Aku tgk dalam tivi diorang minum byk2. Ni apa barang minum 1 tin kongsi ramai? Motif?
Oh itu semua aktiviti pada 5 april. Hari ini 8 april. Harijadi kwn aku ni. Kamu2 semua masih ingat siapa dia? Bagus bagus. Selamat hari jadi Nurul Aain. Long live the 80's!!
Ini ialah gambar yg aku amik masa lepak ngan cik Nurul ni haritu. Apa hal lu tiru fon gua?? Hahaha. Mood April = So far gembira.

Siapa mahu beli tiket David Archuleta?

And another one

2009-04-03T10:51:00.002+08:00

Ok ladies. Now I won 2 tickets to David Archuletta live in KL.
Who wants it?

Numb3rs

2009-04-03T08:12:00.002+08:00

I remembered they did a research on social networking last time. The platform was Lineage II or something like that. Basically, they took a MMORPG (massively multiplayer online role playing game) that have millions of players and surveyed a lot of them. They found that even though they (the players) were given a chance to broaden their world and social links, they are more likely to play with / partner with players from near their area.

Why? We're physical by nature and we like people who we can see and touch more than people we can't. Another thing is, our mind can only manage 100 contacts at one time. So in theory, once we have more than 100 friends, we cannot add more unless we discard some first. All things said, don't blame urself for not keeping ur promises to old and faraway friends cuz chances are, ur friends list are maxed out.

I know it's not what u wanted to hear, but it's always good to know.

P/s: an acquintance is someone u call once in every six months.

two out of two

2009-04-02T11:51:00.003+08:00

So far so good. I won 2 things in march. 1 is the Cornetto Show Your Love contest which gave me this baby.

Another thing is, an internal competition organized by my company to promote our social media networks which gave me a guilt-free shopping spree worth $1000!! But I need to split it with my friend since we're using his account to enter the competition. Here's the pic that won us the prize.

So 2 out of 2 so far. I entered 2 things n won grand prize for both competitions =)

Two

2009-04-01T20:28:00.002+08:00

Now lets say I have 2(two) tickets to F1 this weekend.
Now lets say I don't have a partner to go with yet.

Hmm...

(courtesy of a friend who knows someone)

Malas nak cakap banyak.

2009-03-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

Happy, happy thoughts

2009-03-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

Few things in the world upset me more than ignorant people.

Even fewer things in the world upset me more than ignorant people who asked for advice only to ignore it. I know, when people ask u for advice, it really is up to them whether to take it, or shove it like any other opinion. I know, when people invites ur thoughts in a discussion, my thoughts might as well be rejected. It is, after all, a discussion.

I have trouble saying "I agree that we disagree on this issue now let's move on". I'm more like "I disagree to agree with ur proposal, and u should change ur ideas cuz u're wrong and I'm right". I don't mind to be proven wrong, really I don't. What upsets me most is when I know how stupid it makes u sound, and u seem to be oblivious to the fact of how stupid u made it sound.

I have expectations. And I want u to always make the right decisions. Life is too short to make all the wrong moves.

P/s: Gambar takde kena mengena dgn post.

Schematics

2009-03-22T05:55:00.002+08:00

Wouldn't it be easy if we had a schematics to a perfect life?

We naturally love to plan. Some planned a few days ahead, some a few years, and some laid out their entire life-long roadmap. There's a million ways to plan, and there's a million more details for some of us. Like your wedding day. You bring out the excel sheet and carefully plot every expected expenditure. What colors will you have, the theme, the scene, how many pair of shoes will you end up with? Some people paid every attention to detail. Some people even planned to plan whatever it is that they needed to plan. That is how much of a control-freak we are.

Ironically, the only thing we cannot plan is to love. Sad, really. We never wanted to hurt anyone in our life, and in return we never wanted to be hurt. I believe almost everyone felt that way. Then why are we so afraid to love and be loved in return?

For the most part, I missed how your cheeks never fail to find my lips.

Even from the most awkward of angles.

Lets not plan too far forward now, shall we?

kenapa masa berlalu begitu cepat?

2009-03-16T06:06:00.005+08:00

Terima kasih kepada Allah yg Maha Esa, tuhan sekalian alam, Mak, Ayah, Family, dan rakan2 yg memberikan sokongan moral, sokongan fizikal dan yg membantu secara direct or indirectly, jasa kamu semua tidak akan dilupakan. Tidak lupa juga kepada uncle cafe di pejabat, dan juga stesen minyak Petronas Jln Ulu Klang yg menjual Cornetto tanpa segan silu. Thank you very much!

Oh ye, Diyana boleh la kamu call sy dengan top-up yg awak menangi.

Best juga nama tu ye.

Oh! Sy juga menang ini.

WYSIWYG

2009-03-13T14:55:00.003+08:00

i don't care if it's wrong. Would u like to guess the missing number?

Kayu ukur diri sendiri

2009-03-10T23:31:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

sicknote: Ok u got me. I am very afraid of having no one to rely on and often times I am just THAT arrogant. I trust myself more than any other person. That is why I choose to solve my own problems. And it's true I don't start things where I think I'll fail.

If u know me, can u tell me if u see me as the above?

World full of strangers

2009-02-23T22:41:00.003+08:00

I won't write until I have something really good to write about.

This might take a while.

So maybe you would want to remove me from your sidebar.

I'm on hiatus.

oh! cinta

2009-02-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

Resolusi 2009 revisited. Hehehe. Apa pendapat kamu semua?
Inilah kereta idaman sy!!

Mereka kata perkara2 yg terbaik biasanya datang tanpa penjelasan. Dalam bahase inggeris (Owh BAN DIA SBB DIA GUNA BAHASA AMERIKA WTF) ialah serendipity. Maksudnya menjumpai benda lain (biasanye bende yg baik lah) ketike sedang mencari benda lain. Mcm an unexpected but pleasant surprise (OMG DIA GUNA BAHASA AMERIKA!! KUTUK DIA, REJAM DIA, DIA NI ZIONIS).

Panggil saja aku pejuang amerika, pejuang zionis, tuduh saja aku gembira membunuh saudara2ku, aku x marah, kerana yg akan mengadili aku bukan kamu2 semua. Yg akan mengadili aku kelak ialah Dia. Boikot produk Amerika! Boikot produk mereka boikot rakyat mereka boikot ilmu mereka tapi kita mesti perjuangkan pemikiran zionis!! Apa? Kamu tak tahu yg prejudis itu ialah ajaran yahudi? Yg kamu perjuangkan itu, yg kamu pegang dan kibar2kan itu, ajaran2 prejudis dan bersifat ke'bangsa'an itu, kamu tak tahu itu ialah ajaran yahudi?

Hanya satu bangsa yg merasakan diri mereka ialah bangsa terpilih, bangsa2 lain semua bertaraf rendah. Aku berasa sedih bila kamu mengecam aku kata aku pro-zionis bila kamu terang2an perjuangkan ajaran yahudi dengan bersikat prejudis.

Maaf, cuma pandangan aku. Masing2 akan diadili bila sampai waktunya.

Tribute utk mimi

2009-02-12T19:24:00.002+08:00

Mimi walaupun kau tak sedar ape yg berlaku, kau kena juga bertabah. Harap aku boleh kate semua akan baik2 aje, tp itu menipu namanye.

Asy jgnlah kau terlalu sedih. Ok aku x pandai tulis tribute.

overdue: ketiga

2009-02-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

Installment terakhir dari series "overdue: 25 perkara random yg merupakan topik tagging yg hangat di facebook"... Panjang sgt plak tajuk tu tapi takpe kita selamba.

19. I like walking. Jadi kadang2 park kereta jauh2 tp x kisah. Org yg keluar dgn sy yg kisah.

20. Sy lawat icanhascheezburger.com setiap hari.

21. Kebelakangan ini ilham sy kering kontang. Tak ada apa2 yg terasa seperti mahu tulis.

Jadi sampai sini dulu. Ilham manekah kamu pergi?

Overdue: deux

2009-02-04T20:38:00.003+08:00

Hah ok sekarang sambungan kepada random tag paling panjang dlm sejarah blog sy.

10. Cita2 sy ialah untuk menjadi Super-Kickass-Dad yg boleh menjawab semua soalan curious anak2 dan juga boleh buat semua benda around the house. Sy harus punya cukup masa untuk hantar jr ke sekolah dan ambil dia lepas sekolah. Kalau dia malu takpe sy drop dia 30m dari sekolah. Lepas drop dia, pegi breakfast sama isteri tercinte, balik rumah, eh belum masa nk amik jr balik skolah lagi. Hmm kalau tak ada anak kecil masa ini, kita buat satu lagi.

11. Kelemahan sy yg paling utama ialah toleransi yg rendah terhadap kebodohan. Tp setelah melatih kesabaran for the past month++ sy rase fine. I'm officially kalis-kesesakan-lalulintas (jamster tak memberi apa2 kesan terhadap perasaan sy).

12. Most of the time, I can't explain how I do things. I just know how to do it.

13. I am a very curious person. I want to know what happens if I do this to that thing over there.

14 used to be Henry's. Now it's Theo's.

15. I personally think I talk too loud and sometimes i felt i might be bordering on the offensive. Terus terang sy katekan sy mmg tiada langsung terlintas niat untuk meninggi suara atau menekan2. It's ok. I'm working on toning it down.

When I was 16, sy pergi tgk final piala sumbangsih antara perak melawan ape eh johor kot pada 14/03/99 dan pada malam itu Perak menang 2-0. Pastu balik skolah, kami telah melakukan suatu kesalahan yg menyebabkan sy "dinasihatkan bertukar sekolah" pada 14/04/99 dan kemudian sy menyambung persekolahan pada 10/6/99 di Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Taman Monyet (SMKTM) sehingga menyudahkan zaman persekolahan disana pada tahun seterusnya.

17. I don't know html.

18. Sangat rindu budak cina ini.

Wow this is so hard!! I'll continue later when I have some fresh ideas.

Ps: Kenapa semua org moody dan stress? Marilah bertenang ok. U're not going to die from not being liked by the boss. And if u hate it so much, why is ur resume still missing?

Pps: Cahaya pada waktu pagi ialah warm dan ia memberikan feeling yg sama warm. Lighten up!

Overdue

2009-02-03T00:51:00.005+08:00

Mcm biasa, bila kena tag, kena lah respond (takyah pun takpe takde apa2 jadi pun) tapi layankan aje lah kan. Hidup kalau tak memberi, takkan pula tunggu nak menerima saje (tak pasal2). Ok Haritu Akmal tag sy untuk menulis 25... Yaaaa 25 random things about myself. Last time I did 6 and it was hard enough. Demanding betul 25. Well here goes.

1. I weigh 71kg as of 3rd february 2009.

2. Wah kenapa tu reveal berat sendiri? So vain! Ye sy telah mencuba 2 jenis conditioner dalam tempoh 3 minggu. Clairol kaler pink lebih best dari brand satu lagi.

3. Sy takkan membeli gel/cream/wax/mud/spray-wax/fiber-wax rambut yg sama bila bende tersebut habis. Sy akan cuba sesuatu yg baru. Contohnye haritu pakai apa brand jepun tu punya spray wax lupa tajuk dia pastu tukar follow me punya wax (sangat susah nak pakai tapi oklah dia sgt matte dan dia stick) pastu sy try loreal out of bed gel dan skarang sy menggunakan Uber men mud (untuk membuat rambut yg tidak berkilat, bervolume dan seperti mengantuk) yg penting ianya ialah 'uber' tak tahu sila google.

4. Sy ada lebih byk toiletries dari adik perempuan sy. Sy ada shaving gel (gillette), after-shave (adidas), listerine (semestinya warna biru), syampu (h&s warna hijau), conditioner (clairol pink), nivea facial cleanser, nivea face scrub (oh benda berdua ni tak berapa best lah best lagi pakai yg charcoal haritu tapi lepas ni mungkin nk try neutrogena atau yg jenama ada model orang tua hensem sape name tu lupa), sabun mandi, deodorant, gel + wax + spray rambut (diguna bersama atau berasingan), oh dan juga sy ada body souffle perisa pineapple (some people call it sex wax but for me its just a moisturiser perisa nenas). Dan dalam my toiletries bag sentiasa ada eno, panadol, koyok, minyak kapak dan balm for emergencies. Jd maaf kalau sy bersiap lambat.

5. Shhh. rahsia tak pernah bgtau org jari kaki kanan sy ada 6.

6. Sy percaya confidence ialah benda yg sangat penting. Kalau kita bercakap dengan penuh yakin, even the most absurd things pun boleh menjadi believable. Contohnya kamu2 yg percaya sy ada 6 jari kaki kanan walaupun kamu pernah tgk kaki sy 1000x!!!

7. Oh membuat cerita karut dengan muka serius dan ayat yg "did u know..." ialah my favourite thing to do. Even people yg know me for years pun still fall for that sebab I know a lot of things, and when u have established ur credibility, people eat up your words. But don't worry, if it's a lie, i'll tell u it's a lie after i've had my laugh. Tapi ada sesetengah org invulnerable terhadap taktik ini. Diorang mmg jenis degil.

8. Sy suka observe orang. Sbb itu sy nak menjadi seorang fotographer yg fokus utk mengambil gambar orang dan emosi mereka. Kadang2 sy suka ambil gambar parts badan orang kerana kadang2 ianya menghasilkan impak yg "whoa".

9. Sy perlu tidur skarang sbb sudah pukul 1.15am dan esok sy mahu kerja. Ok sambung esok dgn Overdue: duex.

Numbness

2009-01-29T22:57:00.004+08:00

Have u noticed how warm air feels like blankets? They put u into a sudden sleepiness and the next thing u know

a) the trainer is looking at u and so are ur friends.

b) it's already 2 hours since u last looked at the time.

c) u were jolting cause in ur dream u were falling / playing soccer.

Yes to all of the above? Then u must have realized how warm air feels like blankets. And so are the pages in a book when it's not fiction. And so are the cold and the sound of rain tap-dancing on your window pane. And did u realized how cold air also felt like blankets the way warm air does? It puts u into a sudden sleepiness and the next thing u know u're looking for ur phone to look at the time.

If both warm and cold air feels like blankets, then wouldn't it be logical to deduce that air feels like blankets that put u into a sudden sleepiness? Who is the genius that conclude we're sleepy because we lack oxygen in our brain? Weren't we taught that oxygen makes up 21% of the air we breath? If so then why does air makes u feel sleepy? Is it because of the 78% of carbon monoxide in the air? Does this mean by breathing more air makes u more sleepy? Should I hold my breath the next time Mr. Brian speaks?

Ur yawning is contagious. Am i sleepy because u yawned? Or am I sleepy because I breath? Did u yawned while u were reading this?

Then goodnite my dear friends. I pray the bugs don't cause u logical errors.

I enjoyed writing this and I hope u enjoyed reading it =)

The BS glass

2009-01-24T06:34:00.005+08:00

Maybe i just don't get it. Why is the glass half full or half empty? My take on this question is the glass is half full AND half empty. You might not believe in brainwashing, but this is just another example of it. Monkey see monkey do. Slalu kita dengar org ckp "u can't have it all". Sy rasa sbb itu org ckp the glass is either half full or half empty. Kan itu brainwashing?

Then macam mana kamu explain tentang Nadal? Atau Lance Armstrong? Itu baru bagi 2 contoh. Org2 yg ada segalanya. Mungkin kamu akan kata "tp mungkin diorang ada masalah itu masalah ini". SIAPA YG TAK ADA MASALAH DALAM DUNIA NI SILA ANGKAT TANGAN. Tak ada yg angkat tangan. Sebab?

Sebab ye rata2 manusia suka melimitkan kebolehan sendiri dan menjadikan 'kemampuan' org lain sebagai excuse utk kegagalan diri sendiri. Period. Tp memanglah aku xleh main bola mcm Ronaldo, takleh buat teori relativiti (tak faham pun teori tu sbenarnye) mcm einstein, tp aku kata, apa salahnya ada semuanya? Jgn kita limitkan possibiliti utk diri sendiri. Gelas tadi ialah same2 setengah kosong dan setengah penuh. Sama2 50%. Atau 47-53 ke mcm mcm mane ke, yg penting total dia 1 juga. Faham tak apa aku ckp? Mcm dalam cerita a knights' tale hero dia ckp "take the good with the bad".

Aku pun bukanlah org yg hebat pun. Kenapa kamu2 nk dengar ckp aku kan? Ini pendapat aku je, aku mungkin salah, tp aku mungkin juga betul kan? =) who's to judge? heheh.

awan hitam

2009-01-16T21:27:00.003+08:00

Oh sy mmg tak baca literature. Sy tidak kenal mana2 ahli falsafah atau penulis2 seperti shakespeare atau kroenke. All i know is what thom yorke, tim armstrong and arsene wenger said. Petang td (maghrib actually) sy menonton tv sama rakan2 serumah. Biasalah, rancangan sukan. Kemudian encik wenger muncul. Kwn2 sy ckp "pen, bapak kau kuar tv". Muka dia ada ala2 mr bean sikit, sy tak nafikan. Tp i have a lot of respect for the great man. He taught me: it doesn't matter what it says on their passports, as long as they can play, and is french. Haha. Maaf. Lawak lelaki. Macammana kamu2 pembaca wanita mahu faham kan? Tanya bf2 kamu.

Mungkin post terdahulu mcm ada sedikit suram. Sy tak maksudkannya. At least tak maksudkannya utk menjadi suram lah.

The latest book i've read is by Susan Roanne about face to face communication. She said "parting is such sweet sorrow" although i'm sure it came from shakespeare and she did mention that, cuma sbb i don't read shakespeare, so i'm just going to give credits to sue. Ada idea apa maksudnya?

"Ninety-nine dreams I have had
And every one a red balloon
It's all over, and I'm standing pretty
In the dust that was a city
I could find a souvenir
Just to prove the world was here
Here it is, a red balloon
I think of you and let it go"
- 99 red balloons

Oh esok mahu main game apa dalam kelas?

ellipsis and the first one to go

2009-01-16T01:04:00.003+08:00

note colon this post will spell out every symbol period

the first one to be striked through maksudnya yg akan ditolak ketepi dan diabaikan ialah nombor empat dalam resolusi tahun baru sy noktah

sy tidak looking forward untuk accomplishnya dalam tahun ini

sekian koma terima kasih noktah

oh in case awk semua tidak perasan koma senarai resolusi sy ada di frame kanan

Hiring freeze

2009-01-14T22:26:00.003+08:00

Dukacita dimaklumkan bahawa jawatan yg dikosongkan oleh Nurul Aain tidak akan dibuka untuk pengambilan baru. Keputusan ini diambil dengan kesedaran yg kriteria2 yg perlu dipenuhi adalah sgt demanding dan agak sukar dipenuhi. Antaranya:

1. impromptu dan spontaneous
2. ....

Ok kriteria no 1 yg sukar. Baiklah. Dgn ini sy mengumumkan pengambilan baru jawatan teman rock n roll (eh kate teman wyg tp jawatan ni lebih kool bunyinya) akan terhad kepada part-timer sahaja.

Sekian, terima kasih.

P/s: Ye sy faham. Awk ada obligation lain.

It's not the end of the world. Or is it?

2009-01-12T20:58:00.003+08:00

Have u heard the news? The next solar storm is predicted to happen in 2011. Guess what would happen during a solar storm. Silekan. Anda ada 3 cubaan. Ok jawapannya...

Semua transformers (bukan bumblebee and the gang atau decepticons) akan termusnah dalam serangan solar storm yg diiringi oleh aurora2 yg cantik. Rupanya seakan2 naga yg menari2 diudara. Dan seterusnya, worldwide blackout. Sbb transformer sume jahanam, jadi kita tak akan ada bekalan elektrik. Diorang estimate rebuilding will take around 6 months for the biggest n richest nations, while for others it may take up to 2 years.

Dalam masa itu, healthcare will go into decline sbb tak ada electricity. Even clean water pun takde sbb takde electric cemana nak buat air bersih kan? Dunia akan dilanda wabak penyakit dan tak ada apa yg boleh kita lakukan. Oh scarynye. Anyway, itu kalau worst case senario lah. Tp takpe, it's not the end of the world. Sbb...

....

Sy da pandai buat cupcake! =)

Nah tgk gambar2 dibawah ini hasil dari usaha hari sabtu lepas.

Ha ini semua 16 cupcakes tersebut. Perhatikan yg sebelah elmo itu ialah muka lalat.

Ini pandangan atas semua cupcakes tersebut.

Urm.. Susunan lain.

Lambang anarki untuk membuktikan yg cupcakes ini dibuat oleh seorang lelaki.

Ha yg ini dgn fondant top. Butterfly tu takleh makan tau.

Itulah 16 biji cupcakes yg telah dihasilkan oleh tgn sy. Sy tahu, cupcakes sy tak mampu selamatkan dunia, tp sudah pasti mampu menyelamatkan perut yg lapar. Selama ni puas sy ckp cupcakes are nothing more than beautiful cakes. Sekarang sy puas hati sbb da buat sendiri. Dan resipi cikgu lynn mmg sedap. Tp sy xkan dedahkan resipinya disini. Dia x bagi. Hehe. Oh sebenarnya byk lagi gambar, tp ada pada kwn sy. Nnt dah dapat dari dia sy upload lagi ok =)

Superdad in the making

2009-01-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

I know what u're thinking. Superdad is a someone who has all the answers, can teach the kids football and is excellent in taking out the trash. Or maybe do the laundry. But tomorrow, I'm going to a cupcake baking class. I don't know if making cupcakes falls into baking but I couldn't care less. IMHO, a dude who can bake cupcakes, is one step closer to being a superdad. And I'm already good at baking chocolate cakes.

P/s: I am in the lookout for a new movie buddy as Nurul Aain will be going back to school next week. The replacement should be 1) preferably single as I don't want to go to all the fuss that the boyfriend will create (and also single people are more readily available), 2) loves going to the movies (like duhhh!). Oh plus plus points, should be spontaneous as the invite could be impromptu.

Eternally grateful

2009-01-07T01:12:00.001+08:00

I am really thankful god gave me people as friends instead of monkeys!!

*phew* glad i got that out of my system.

Really. I do.

Oh it's personal

2009-01-04T08:22:00.003+08:00

I gained 2kg lately. Oh now it's personal =)

Pardon me for blabbing of all my thoughts on how we should change for the better and what not. My philosophical self can't hold it in. I am changing and the way I see it, when u know of something useful, it's ur responsibility to let it be known to others around u. Simple. Oh but this time it's personal.

Yesterday I spent my night showing off this cool jacket which looks damn good with my khakis to the cats and the ghosts around the pool. I hung out at the edge of the cliff where we used to sit and talk for hours until the bus left for its morning run. Back then the 'bas fajar' was unheard of.

I sat there with my friends agmon, clark-kent-cum-karatekid and her bf Mr-I-Know-What-to-do-to-get-us-out-of-trouble. We sat a few hundred miles from each other. We talked, we texted. My cat left me to guard the house. We talked of achievements, of accidents, and of hair coloring her cousin. I wished it would drizzle every night so I could enjoy this atmosphere. It's very personal.

I will turn 26 this year. I am still far from anywhere I want to be when I grow up. They say I can achieve a lot more when I'm not grounded. Truth is, I'm a family type of guy. Achievement to me doesn't mean a few million quids worth of property. Achievement to me means going back home to familiar faces and loving hugs. Achievement means to guide loved ones with their dreams. So far, my best relationship is with my cat. I hate to think I'd grow old with just cats around the house. Who then, will be the heir to my throne?

They say it's easier to teach a kid since their canvas is unpainted. We have our own paintings. And to paint new, we must scrape off the previous picture. You can take this as a compliment or whatever, but your figure is somewhat permanent. Much to my joy and dismay.

Maybe I should start with that. Cheers to this year.

P/s: the jacket really looks good with my khakis. Oh silmi bagi je la kat aku jaket nih.

dua ribu sembilan

2009-01-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

Hari pertama 2009. Fuh tarik nafas dalam2 (sambil mengembangkan perut supaya diaphragm anda stretch dan memberikan lebih ruang kepada paru2 untuk expand). Oh ye dalam langkah menarik nafas dalam2 itu tulang belakang anda akan menolak kedepan sedikit dan collar bone anda terangkat. Jgn cemas. Itu perkara yg normal. Cuba sekali lagi. Ok good. Sekarang seperti trainer sy yg bernama Christine itu slalu suruh buat, angkat tangan kanan anda tinggi2, bengkokkan siku anda dgn tangan anda kedalam, dan tepuk belakang anda sendiri sambil memuji diri sendiri kerana berjaya melalui 2008 dengan cemerlang. Yay. Ye lah takkan nak harap ada je org duk belakang kita utk *pat* kita setiap kali kita buat sesuatu kan. Scary jugak kalau adaaaaa je org kat belakang kita. Mcm stalker.

So mcm mana dgn tahun lepas? Ok tak? Ramai yg kata tahun lepas tahun yg singkat. Tp bagi sy tahun lepas mcm panjang sangat. Byk betul benda yg berlaku. Tp yg penting, sy akhiri tahun 2008 lebih baik dari permulaannya. Which is good lah kan. Kita mesti mahu tiap2 tahun kita ada improvement. Kalau tak ada improvement, maknanya kita sudah buang 1 tahun atau 12 bulan atau 52 minggu atau 365 hari. Which is sad :(

Pada minggu terakhir tahun ini sy ada bagi 2 latihan untuk kamu semua sebagai tool untuk kamu menjadi lebih gembira pada hari2 akan datang. Tak susah sgt kan? Mcm mana rasanya? Tak byk benda yg buat kita sedih sekarang kan bila kita maafkan orang. Dan no 2 ialah untuk tidak complain tentang apa apa pun. Ini penting kerana bila kita complain tentang apa yg berlaku pada kita instead of mencari jalan alternatif, kita sebenarnye membataskan fikiran kita. Kita bermain watak 'mangsa' dalam hidup ini bila kita selalu complain.

Watak mangsa ni mmg paling senang nak dimainkan. 'oh i'm so helpless what am i going to do?' is not going to help u with anything. Bila benda jadi kat kita wpun sbb kelemahan atau kesalahan kita, kita blame it on something else. Ada yg blame it on luck, on other people or kadang2 blame kat takdir. If all u know is to blame, then there is no hope for u lah. Instead of blaming, kenapa tak cuba work around the problem. Fokus la kepada penyelesaian, not focus on the problem. Kalau kita buang masa utk fikir benda2 yg -ve, susah utk kita stay +ve. So kepada yg berjaya hidup utk tidak complain, skarang next level to go is utk jgn blame sesiapa utk apa yg berlaku pada kita. Bila kita belajar utk tidak blame org lain, then by default, the less people will be available for u to forgive before going to sleep. Sebab bila kita tak blame org, org tak buat salah kat kita lah kan? So boleh tidur cepat sikit :)

Tiap2 hari sy dengar "tp kau tak tahu pen, kau tak lalu benda2 yg aku lalu". Oh big deal, I should be envying u for that. More of something is NEVER a problem. Kalau dia ada lebih hurdles dalam hidup dia, kaki dia lebih kuat dari kaki sy sbb dia byk buat lompatan tu. I'm so envious. Everything is a matter of perspective. And from my perspective, everything exists in duality. Where there's left, there's right and where there's dark there's light. So setiap benda buruk yg berlaku mesti ada benda yg baik. The trick is to find it. Itu sahaja. The rest, I leave it to u :)

Oh let's pray for a better year ahead!

Hidup berani mati bahagian kedua

2008-12-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

Ok kali ini tajuk itu betul2 punya. Kejap. Diam dulu dan baca baik2.

Hidup berani mati bukan bermaksud live dangerously. Maksudnya live with no regrets. Ok mari cuba ini selama 7 hari berikut.

1. Setiap hari sebelum tidur maafkan semua org yg anda kenal.

2. Jgn complaint langsung tentang apa2 yg berlaku. Ingat semua benda dalam dunia ada duality. Kiri takleh ada kalau takde kanan. Tinggi takleh ada kalau takde pendek. Jadi semua benda buruk mesti ada benda baik.

Try 2 benda ini dulu. Sy jamin minggu depan awk2 semua akan jadi org yg lebih gembira. Double money back guarantee!!

hidup berani mati

2008-12-21T23:09:00.007+08:00

Hello semua.

Agak lama sy tidak update ape ape kan? Byk sgt benda nak buat dan update blog bukanlah priority no 1 skarang. Ini pun sy ada window of opportunity selama 30 minit sahaja utk catch-up dengan blog kamu semua dan update disini. Lepas ini sy perlu sambung kerja utk bijoux sbb sy masih belum pandai nak buat UI untuk kamu dan memudahkan kamu mengaccess semuanya.

Kedua: Sy rasa sy perlu meminta maaf dari seseorang. Tapi berkata "i'm sorry or sorilah awk" is too cliche. Jadi sy akan lakukan sesuatu utk earn forgiveness itu. Kalau awk rasa sy berhutang suatu apology dari awk, sila bersedia.

Sebenarnya sy baru pulang dari Pulau Pinang kerana ada tugasan fotografi disana. Sy dan partner yg bernama Ben telah mengambil gambar pasangan Zaki dan Hidayah selama sehari suntuk. Sy suka couple ini kerana mereka suka ketawa. Pengantin perempuan itu juga fotogenik jd sy berpuas hati dengan gambar yg sy hasilkan. Oh gembira. Penat. Tp gembira.

Hari ini ramai org yg menegur sy antaranya:

"Encik Cameraman sudah makan ke? nanti pengsan karang"

"Encik Cameraman, rehat lah dulu"

"Encik Cameraman, bla bla bla"

Sy patut pakai tag nama.

Then ada seorang mamat ni tanya "how much u all charge for an event? I mau bwk u org pergi Sabah buat photoshoot sana. Last time ktorang hire cameraman diorang tu bangang. Gambar tak cantik, Caj kami 7000. Dah la flight tempat tinggal makan semua kami sponsor." So obviously bila kami ckp kami caj dalam linkungan 2500 sehari, dia gembira. Mungkin dia teruja tgk lens kami wpun sebenarnye lens itu bukanlah yg terhebat di pasaran. Mungkin dia pun bukanlah handalan dalam bidang ini.

Malam, sempat berborak dgn this uncle. Ktorang berenti kat Ulu bernam *ye ke name tempat tu ulu bernam?* ala korang tau kot. Seronok berborak dgn dia. 50 year old chinese guy. Muka muda, rambut putih. Dia kata nanti dia call ajak minum * yay harap2 ada job baru =) *

Tahun 2008 hampir sampai ke penghujung, jadi in this week or the next, sy akan membuat summary tentang kejadian sepanjang tahun ini. Maaflah post kali ini agak bosan dan dragging. I promise I'll post something meaningful lepas ni!!!

OHHHHH TERIMA KASIH KEPADA BOYFRIEND BIJOUX KERANA MEMINJAMKAN SAYA KAMERA!!! SAYA BELUM ADA DUIT NK BELI KAMERA SENDIRI TAPI SAYA AKAN BERUSAHA LEBIH KUAT!!

P/s: title post ini terlalu strong untuk contentnya. Takpe. Nnt sy buat post baru yg strong untuk support title ini. Thanx for reading =)

Dimana Diyana

2008-12-10T21:09:00.005+08:00

Macam tajuk drama / telemovie melayu kan? Contoh skrip yg terbayang di fikiran ialah seorang remaja / young executive yg telah jatuh cinta dengan seorang jejaka yg menarik (probably a sportsman) dan melalui kehidupan yg penuh dengan liku2 dan cabaran2 di tempat kerja. Adakah Diyana mampu membawakan keseimbangan dalam hidupnya atau dia terpaksa mengorbankan salah satu daripadanya? Adakah Diyana akan memilih kerjaya atau relationship? Dalam masa yg sama Diyana telah mengenali seorang jejaka yg agak 'charming' dan telah menggugat relationshipnya dengan jejaka A tadi. Tiba-tiba Diyana hilang. Kemanakah Diyana telah pergi? Adakah dia terlalu bz dengan kerjaya atau cinta? Bagaimakah kesudahan drama ini??

Ok itu cuma cerita yg direka2 berdasarkan tajuk diatas. Tiada kena mengena dengan yg hidup atau mati. Diharap Diyana tidak berkecil hati =)

Seterusnya. Dalam kelewatan ini (as of late) sy telah meluangkan masa sama ramai kawan2 sbb sy da pindah duk rumah bujang. Seperti yg dinyatakan dalam post terdahulu (previous post), jadual sy agak ketat (bukan macam seluar bila kita saspek ukur lilit pinggang kita telah bertambah tp lebih kepada ketat yg mcm u know, pandai2 lah). Tp sy suka kerana tak byk masa melepak2 tak buat apa2 dirumah. Byk lagi perkara yg sy suka dalam hidup sy sekarang ini. Baik letak list.

1. Sy suka bangun pagi dan keluar rumah sebelum bulan tidur.

Pada waktu ini sy sedang bersarapan di kedai mamak. Hari ini bgn terlebih awal. Biasanya waktu ini sy didalam bilik mandi. Sy suka jam baru sy yg merupakan sebuah hadiah =)

2. Sy suka tgk muka2 familiar dan muka baru tiap2 pagi dalam bas / tren.

3. Sy suka jumpa kwn2 di ofis.

4. Sy suka berjalan kaki dan menunggu bas (sumpah tak tipu sekarang ni sy betul punya suka public transport)

5. Sy suka pulang dari ofis dengan knowledge baru.

6. Sy suka berjumpa kwn2 dirumah dan membuat lawak bodoh dgn mereka.

7. Sy suka dan semakin suka kwn2 sy.

8. Sy suka bila ada pembaca2 senyap muncul dan memberi komen / memberitahu rakan mereka dan membolehkan sy mengenal pasti siapakah pembaca sy.

9. Sy SUKA DOUBLE ENJOYMENT TAPI BELUM BOLEH PEGI MCD LAGI SIAPA MAHU BELANJA SAYA HAH??!!

10. Sy suka membaca dalam perjalanan. Setiap hari dapat surat khabar percuma (tentulah jenama matahari) dari 7-eleven tempat sy berkumpul sama foreigner2 lain sambil menunggu bas kami.

11. Sy suka housemet2 sy sbb diorang suka belanja sy makan (ye bulan pertama ini mmg menyeksakan. Sy mmg tgh alami sedikit kesempitan tp sy boleh handle financial sy cukup untuk tengok muvi seminggu sekali)

12. Sy suka nurul aain sbb dia selalu sudi menonton wayang bersama dan kemudian drop sy di tempat yg bukan2 (tapi jgn salahkan dia sbb sy yg pilih tempat2 itu)

13. Sy akan lebih suka kalau dia nak tgk bolt dengan sy hari jumaat nnt. Oh no sy kena hantar kwn baru sy ke LCCT sbb dia nak pegi wedding di Jakarta. Jgn salah sangka. Nama dia Shaf tapi dia lelaki. Mungkin kalau sempat sy cari telefon awam utk hubungi kamu.

14. Sy suka kwn2 yg lama terpisah telah membuat effort utk kembali kedalam hidup sy.

Byk betul benda yg looking upwards pada masa ini. Tp sbb pegangan sy ialah "whatever can go wrong will go wrong" sy agak berhati2 kerana khuatir esok lusa something bad is going to happen. Harap2 tidak. Hari Jumaat ini ada assessment Oracle. Harap2 sy tidak membuat kesilapan2 yg cemerkap (cuai). Ben sedang menonton TV. Sy mahu pergi join dia lah.

Later rakan2.

P/s: Seriously, Dimanakah Diyana? Adakah dia tidak sihat?

They might be giants

2008-12-07T08:57:00.004+08:00

For the longest time, when I heard the term "Geneva convention" my mind links back to the humanitarian law (is it a law or just a code of conduct?) against the prisoners of war and non-combatants in times of war. Now when people say Geneva, I'd think of none other than one.

Ok memang agak penat bila 6 hari seminggu kena bangun pukul 515 pagi sbb nk catch the 6am train but it was well worth it. It teaches me discipline to wake up every damn morning knowing u have a 1++ hour of travel in your schedule. It teaches me patience when the bus u're trying to catch passes by in front of ur eyes when u're about 10secs away from the station (no they won't stop no matter how much u scream or shout once they started rolling). But most of all, it teaches me gratitude and perseverance.

Lepas 3 minggu bertraining aku mmg rasa better sangat. My tech skills are way better now, my comm skill has been upgraded, and I think my heart has grown relatively bigger. I no longer hate people I don't know. I no longer mind a lot of things that used to bug me. I'm very proud of myself. Cuma aku harap aku dapat learn patience faster dan boleh tolerate my single greatest weakness; I can't tolerate stupidity and incompetency. Ok itu aku kena belajar.

Ok enough dengan update2 itu. Sbb aku terlalu bz, jadi byk benda yg aku tidak dapat catch up. Lagipun handphoneku kena bar dan aku takde duit nk bayar. Elaun masuk hujung bulan. sheesh.

Diyana: Mana kamu hah? Adekah kamu sedang OK bersama jejaka itu yg menawan hatimu? Nnt I da bayar bil I call k.

B: Have fun disana ok. Keep ur panties on at all times.

Bijoux: Ah sebelum cuti sibuk ckp nk lepak2. Da cuti berminggu2 nk masuk sebulan nk abis cuti da pun kau tu.

Rookie/lola: Oh mari catch muvi2 yg lewat lagi dan tinggalkan sy di tepi jalan yg menakutkan. eheh.

I might be abducted

2008-11-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

Guys, I think I might have been abducted by aliens. I suspect it happened between the transition from night to day and day to night. I have proof! Watch these.

This was taken at approximately 640am at KL Sentral. If u're familiar with this place, u'd know that during this time, there should be at least a hundred people waiting for their bus.

And these 2 were taken around 7.11pm at Abdullah Hukum station. It should be crowded since it's rush hour and people should be flocking here to catch the train home. BUT THERE'S NOT A SINGLE PERSON AROUND!! I think I might have been abducted or have stepped in some twilight realm or something. This don't seem right at all.

P/s: sorry for the picture quality. It was taken using my trusted w910i. Not a very good imaging tool.

dr. phil's test

2008-11-27T15:58:00.001+08:00

Tadi sy buat test ini. What do u guys think? Am I loyal? Ha sile pegi try pulak. heheh.

pengembaraan ke melaka: episod 3

2008-11-26T21:25:00.005+08:00

ini gambar di depan suatu church yg sy tidak ingat namanya.
(click for larger image)

ego boosting

2008-11-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

U guys miss me. admit it. u won't? never mind then.

As of late, i've been terribly busy. I've started my apprenticeship program with dell on monday of last week. On the first day I took the train to sentral, switched to komuter to batu tiga where i endured what could from now on be referred to "possibly the longest 30 minutes ride of my entire life". Agent Smith said it best "do u know what I can't stand in this world? It's the smell". I was unfortunate enough to stand next to a hobo for more stations than i could bother count. Leaving the train isn't an option when u're against time.

I'd like to clarify that I have nothing against strangers. It's not that I rate them, it's just they irate me. I actually had spoken to some of the commuters from different races and background during the whole of last week. first was the indonesian guy who at first looks like he's about to mug me. After awhile i saw his face as friendly and tolerable to say the least. Then there's the indian girl, and the chinese uncle and the bangladeshi uncle. They are all people too. From now on I will try to be less of a judgmental person towards foreigners working here.

I know they say that there are a lot of bad people out there. But I do believe there are a lot of really good guys too. It's just that the good ones are being normal and thus, doesn't create a story worthy of a headline. The terrible ones steal the limelight. I think my thoughts should be relevant on this case. Afterall, I experienced it first hand. Don't u think?

As for my training, I'm enjoying it very much. Last week we completed boot camp and business English modules. I had a good time on both the modules. On the boot camp I designed an outer shell for an egg to protect it from breaking when let go from 6 feet high. In the BE class I learned quite a lot of biography and geography (I know, right?). 3 for 1. Not only did we get to learn English, we get extras for free.

Oh and I met someone last weekend. I thought I missed her, but until I met her, I have no idea I miss her THAT much. Your hair looks fine, let it grow a bit can?

Brainfreeze

2008-11-13T01:37:00.004+08:00

Did u know that brainfreeze is also known as the frozen brain syndrome? It happens when the top palate in ur mouth touches something cold which makes the vessels constrict. This in turn makes ur nerves send signals to your brain to open up the blood vessels. The rush of blood to the brain makes it swell, thus the pain. Cool heh? One way to soothe the pain is to touch your thumb to your top palate to warm it up.

On an unrelated news, I've realized something important. I'm not a good partner. I could've sworn the last 5 advice that I've given to either part of the couple is to break up. I can't understand the need to stay in such mentally abusive relationship. Like for example, the guy calls the girl every 5 minutes whenever the girl fails to pick up. In between the calls, there's the messages. I was like "WHAT IS SO FUCKING IMPORTANT THAT U CAN'T WAIT FOR HER TO RETURN YOUR CALL?". It's 3a.m FFS!! I wondered how is she able to stay in this relationship for years. Even if she picks it up, he's gonna call again in 30 mins anyway. So why bother?

If it was up to me, he'd be single right now.

And then there's the case where the girlfriend is jealous of the bf's family. The bf's family is always lovey dovey like "ok c u later, luv u" and emails him telling him how much they love him and what not. The girlfriend logs into his email and deletes all those mails. If it was me, no trial, no argument, just gtfo off my face. How do they do this? How does one stay in a relationship?

oh aku x pandai bercinta. sib baik aku single.

Melaka trip photos

2008-11-09T14:49:00.003+08:00

Ini salah satu gambar yg diambil di Melaka seperti yg sy ceritakan dalam post yg lampau. Tapi gambar2 yg ada 'action' dari camera yg lain dan camera berkenaan itu sy belum dapat gambarnya lagi. Ini satu contoh saja sbb sy belum resize gambar2 lain. Sy suka gambar ini sbb ia sgt kotor dan semuanya salah dalam gambar ni. Actually gambar ni jadi mcm ni masa tgh convert NEF > JPG so ada masalah apa ntah sy taktau gambar ni jadi ceni. Tp sy sukaaaaaa. Ok nnt dah puas resize dan what not sy upload lagi.

I remember

2008-11-07T01:15:00.003+08:00

I blame this computer for losing my thought. I had a good line, worthy of remembrance and lost it in the time this lappy took to reach here, to my writing pad. Oh well...

Tell me if there's a movie I missed this year in 2008 that has a better title than Quantum of Solace. Right? It's a very good title. Worthy of remembrance i must say. But I haven't had the time to go watch yet. I love the new bond. Daniel Craig is the man lah. Sbb dia stay true to the principle that I've been brought up to; Step lightly, and carry a big gun. Ok ok maybe I wasn't brought up to those words but damn that was a good line kan? Oh well..

Urm. Billy Corgan. I don't know if we're living in the same time sbb when I was growing up, I liked billy corgan. Dia sgt pandai bermain kata2. Contohnye, he introduced me to the word melancholy but he spelled it mellon-collie. How the hell did he do that? Thats just pure awesomeness. Also his other songs were "bullet with butterfly wings". Can u top that? Not unless ur name is Thom Yorke. Oh well..

It was a stupid korean movie. Something about a monster that came out of the lake because some idiot scientist disposed of their chemical waste in the sink. I thought there were more to it. I thought it was trying to be sarcastic. I find the whole movie very entertaining as it was a mockery to the government and all the things that people live for. I can't remember the title. All I remember is my beautiful friend who went and watched it with me. Before that we watched a stupid train-station-haunting-movie-with-bad-make-up. I couldn't figure out whether the thing that haunts the station was a guy, girl, or ghost. I remember u wearing black. Oh well..

What I'm saying is, I like it around here just like it is. I don't want anything to change. I'm not going to outgrow the most important set of people I've found. Well at least not in the near future. Ok I will get to know new people once I start working, but that wouldn't make any of u dearies less awesome. I don't want to sit and drink with strangers. I want to sit and drink with people who I can make plans for the next year with. I know for a fact, that God willing, I'll still see u guys around next time without the awkwardness u gain from long-time-no-see syndrome.

P/s: Well everyone I know has got a reason to say "put the past away"

note: we'll be playing a game now. First to post the title of the song from my future p/s will get points. I'll put up the leader board at the right panel later. And in 6 months, I'll reward the top scorer with a fully paid vacation. Yes, I'm planning on a vacation and I don't care who I'm going with. Besides, u who read my blog are my closest friends. I wouldn't mind taking any of u.

To whom it may concern

2008-11-05T23:50:00.004+08:00

Pada saat penulisan, sy sedang merindukan 2 orang.

Ok imajin takdir dan ketentuan ialah seutas benang. Benang itu bermula dari nafas pertama kita, dan berakhir pada nafas terakhir. Warna masing2 pilih la sy taknak argue. Dalam berjuta2 benang ni nanti dia akan berselirat. Ada yg terlintas, tersimpul, terikat dan macam2 lah. Ok skarang imajin benang itu ialah timeline hidup kita. Boleh imajin tak?

Jadi kadang2 kita bertemu, kadang2 tidak. Kadang2 kita tersimpul sama benang yg color dia tidak matching, lantas tidak bergaduh. Sy sedang menulis metafora tentang incompatibility. Tapi kadang2 benang itu sangat match warnanya. Jadi kita compatible. Kadang2, kita mmg tidak ada jodoh kan?

Takdir ialah suatu konsep yg sukar difahami. Tapi bagi sy, kita boleh berusaha. Kalau mahu, tak ada jalan yg tidak boleh sampai. Tak semua orang setuju. Some people are just too effing dependant on useless strings and variables that they believe there's nothing they can do to tamper with fate. Sy cuma setuju yg ajal tidak akan lewat dan tidak akan awal walau sesaat. Tentang pertemuan dan perpisahan, sy rasa kita boleh cuba.

Pada saat sy menulis ini, sy sedang merindukan 2 orang. Jadi to whom it may concern, sy rindukan kamu. Sy harap kamu rindukan sy juga. Orang2 yg dimaksudkan itu tidak jauh, kamu hanya perlu melihat kedalam cermin. Ya itu 2 org yg sy rindu buat masa ini. Perasaan bercampur2. Sy pun tak berapa nak pasti.

Pengembaraan ke Melaka

2008-10-26T22:31:00.004+08:00

Separuh masa pertama, liverpool 1 - chelsea 0.

Smalam pergi ke Melaka pergi tgk si Khairul sama Tira kawin. Pandai si pemekap tira tu. Menjadikan dia jauh lebih cantik dr biasa. Khairul (also known as K) berjalan dengan gaya biasa dia. Tak berubah wpun berkahwin. Selamat sorg lagi kwn aku. Silmi, ben, mayon dan jeego seperti biasa tidak melepaskan peluang untuk menerjah kedalam aktiviti berkaraoke di rumah org kawin. Gembira nampaknya para tetamu melayan penyanyi2 sambilan dari Kuala Lumpur. Ketawa kecil byk kedengaran. Ada juga yg ketawa besar. Gambar? Nnt lah sy upload selepas ambil dari rumah Ben. Apa2 pun, sekarang setelah teringat kembali pada rumah K dan Tira, sy teringat yg sy tertinggal bahulu dalam kereta B.A. Oh ye, pengepit K smalam ialah B.A. Sy belum dapat lagi jadi pengepit. Kena kuruskan badan dulu kot?

Selepas dari rumah itu, kami bergerak ke rumah encik Kadak pula. Dia berkahwin dgn siapa nama sy tak kenal. Linda kot nama dia. Rumah kadak cantik. Bapak dia menang pertandingan lanskap byk kali kot. Dalam byk2 orang kawin, doorgift di rumah Kadak paling berguna. Dia bagi Yasin. Ya. Tapi sy tertinggal dalam kereta B.a jugak. Agak byk makanan yg kami tapau dari rumah kadak. Gambar2 akan menyusul.

Meneruskan pengembaraan di Melaka, ktorang pergi rumah Dick dan Keron pula. Tp dicky tiada dirumah. Tinggallah keron utk melayan kami. Sementara encik Beruang tidur, kami ke tepi pantai(?) yg telah ditambak. Nama dia pantai Klebang. Mengambil gambar dikala matahari terbenam dan kemudian makan cendol pula. Sekembalinya kami ke rumah keron, kami dinner dgn bekalan dari rumah kadak tadi dan chow dengan meninggalkan sisa makanan dan sampah sarap utk dikemas oleh keron. Jgn malas keron. Kemas nnt dick balik tgk sepah2 mesti die bengang.

Pastu pada waktu malam kami spend dengan mengambil gambar di Kota Melaka. Sampai dekat pukul 2 budak2 ni main ambik gambar. Tahu la masing2 dgn dslr yg canggih2. Sy sorg takde kamera. Jadi terpaksa menjadi model sambilan utk mereka. Ada juga gambar2 yg cantik. Nnt sy upload ok. Jumpa pakcik beca yg super berlagak.

Yon: Pakcik, kat sini mana nak cari amoi?
Pakcik beca: Tu semua tak penting, yg penting kita cari rezeki yg halal.

Ha ambik kau. Tanya bukan2 lagi. Pastu dengar pakcik tu berlagak dgn becanya yg berharga 11ribu konon itu. Dengan ayat berlagak dia: Kamera2 korang tu kumpul 5 bijik pun tak tentu boleh beli beca ni tau. Belagak gila takleh blah siot. Byk lagi yg dia pompang smalam. Ramai org mcm ni kat msia rupanya.

So anyway, we spent 1 whole day kat melaka dengan jayanya. Dan jugak bergembira dengan berjalan2 dan membuang masa. Sampai rumah pukul 4 mcm tu. Oh gembira.

Watch this space ok. Sinilah tempat yg sy akan upload gambar!!

The number

2008-10-19T23:47:00.004+08:00

My bro's friend just passed away. She's only 20 and lung cancer got her. She's no smoker. Her dad was never around. He's one of the guys yg kaya gila dan bz gila so he's never around. How sad is that?

She found out when she was 19. How does it feel to have all your hopes and dreams crushed just when u're about to step out into the world? And all the treatments and precautions means she has to isolate herself from the world. At 19.

Put urself in her shoes. Mcm mana agaknya. Kalau aku tahu, setahun dari sekarang, aku tiada disini. Adekah aku akan keluar dan cuba mencapai cita2 selagi badan masih bertenaga? Aku xleh fikir apa yg aku akan lakukan dalam 1 tahun. 12 bulan bukan tempoh yg cukup untuk apa apa pun. Sedihnya.

It could happen to anyone. Are we ready to leave?

P/s: rookie is now known as Lola

Pengajaran dari Kami the movie

2008-10-16T15:31:00.003+08:00

That movie sucks! Okay la dia ada moments dia. Tapi sangat dragging. I had more fun making fun of the other movie goers. Dan cerite itu kisah cinta simpang siur. Bukan tiga segi, bukan 4 segi, tapi simpang siur. WTF? Don't feel too bad rookie, maybe lakonan diorang tidak hebat jadi kamu konfius. It's ok.

Pertama sekali watak Ali. Ali sucks. Tak sangka dia pandai bertumbuk. Ali tidak pasti tentang perasaan sendiri. Semuanya mahu simpan. Ali seperti seseorang yg aku kenal. Tak semua benda kena tanggung sendiri. Kawan2 ada supaya kita tak perlu handle semuanya seorang diri. So ur parents divorce, big deal. Grow up lah. Mak aku 2 time divorcee. Takde plak aku isap dadah.

No 2. Sofie. Aku takde komen. Aku x suka dia. Typical. Perempuan cantik yg keluar dgn orang lain tp hati suka org lain. Seperti aku ckp, typical. Tp apa role die dlm movie itu selain seorang yg memendam perasaan pada ali?

Then Adii. Cantik. Aku suka dia sbb dia seorang kwn yg baik. Tapi aku x faham kenapa dia kena internet dating. Dia cantik. So aku rasa character build dia pun ntah apa apa. Scene yg diorang keluar dari rumah secara sneak out tu, rumah siapa? Bukan rumah sofie n bukan rumah adii. Rumah siapa?

Skarang aku dah malas nk tulis pasal Abu dgn Lynn.

Mungkin aku mcm tak berape nk suke cerite ni sbb aku x tgk series die kot. Tapi cerite ni sebenarnya ada cerite. Ada moments dia. Aku rasa part masa Abu mati tu agak well crafted lah. Part yg Ali keluar kereta emosi2 semua tu aku rasa best. Bapak Abu bila Abu dah mati baru nk gilap2 medal semua apa citer.

Cerite ini sgt2 dragging. Semua bende yg aku suke berlaku last2 je. Nak sampai situ lama gila kot. Tapi aku pay attention juga. Sbb dia kisah cinta simpang siur. Aku bagi 2 setengah bintang.

Ok pengajaran dia, belajar rajin2 dan jgn terlalu memendam perasaan. Apa kita nak kita kena grab (bukan grab masuk dalam baju). Tp apa kita nak ckp, kita ckp. Kecuali kwn baik kau suka kat perempuan yg kau suka. Then kau diam. Abu suka siapa sebenarnya? Confuse.

Jiran

2008-10-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

Jiran selang 3 rumah dari aku berumur 27 dan sudah berkahwin 2 kali. Hebat kan beliau? Paras rupa beliau not bad lah, walaupun mungkin bukan digilai ramai. Haritu dia ajak aku masa kenduri kawin dia, tapi masa tu aku agak bz dengan sesuatu jd aku tak pergi. Ada sedikit menyesal. Sbb bila aku tgk dia main badminton dgn isteri dia, aku kata dalam hati "itu isteri paling cantik pernah aku tgk". Sweet gila nak mampos muka wife dia. Itu sambil main badminton tu. Cuba bayangkan dia di meja makan sambil menuangkan nasi kedalam pinggan kamu.

kadang kadang

2008-10-13T14:44:00.003+08:00

Fikiran aku jadi tak tentu. Seperti ada sesuatu yg aku lupakan/terlupa/hilang dari ingatan. Sumpah ada banyak benda melintas kiri dan kanan. Bukan, bukan sesuatu yg boleh aku contengkan keatas kad memori. Aku pun x pasti. Seperti sesuatu yg penting dan tidak harus aku lupakan telah hilang.

Sejuta bayangan melintasi bila aku cuba fokus. Bukaan mata yg kecil bawa sedikit cahaya. Perasaan aku pelik bila aku x boleh fokus. Rasa seperti mahu pusingkan mata 180 darjah kebelakang dan lihat kedalam fikiran aku. Boleh tak? Aku x nampak apa yg sedang aku fikirkan dan tidak tidak darah aku bersih dari alkohol dan dadah. Kandungan nikotin juga kurang dari biasa.

Aku sedang cuba transisi dari seorang freeloader kepada seorang yg lebih conscious. I blend my own juice now. Ha sbb bunyinya salah dalam bahasa ibunda. Terlalu byk benda yg aku fikirkan pada masa aku tidak memikirkan tentang apa apa. Simtom2 kehilangan fikiran atau terjunan kedalam kesedaran? Pada masa sekarang, aku nyaris terucap tiada yg secantik kamu dan menyesalinya.

Kita hamba. Hina kalau jadi hamba tanpa tuan.

Supervillain

2008-10-09T19:48:00.001+08:00

Your results:
You are The Joker

The Joker		100%
Magneto		88%
Lex Luthor		70%
Apocalypse		70%
Poison Ivy		70%
Dr. Doom		70%
Mr. Freeze		70%
Riddler		70%
Mystique		68%
Green Goblin		68%
Two-Face		68%
Catwoman		66%
Dark Phoenix		55%
Venom		52%
Juggernaut		36%
Kingpin		27%

The Clown Prince of Crime. You are a brilliant mastermind but are criminally insane. You love to joke around while accomplishing the task at hand.

Click here to take the "Which Super Villain are you?" quiz...

Hehehe =)

Home

2008-10-09T12:54:00.003+08:00

The heart is not mechanical. There is no on and off switch.

Being in one place for so long, one will be inclined to call it home. Even when it's not. I have a place I call home other than this roof above my head. Its been a while since I've visited that place. I'm almost sure the moss have forgotten about me. I'm almost certain that I've grown enough hate to leave the place and never to return. Tapi aku cuma manusia.

So maybe there's still something there for me. In my own denial I wanted to believe that they want me to return too. Been in love for so long its hard not to return. The heart is not mechanical.

Catastrophic phailure

2008-10-08T23:21:00.004+08:00

Pagi tadi sy terpotong jari sendiri (bukan sampai putus, luka je) ketika memotong epal. Agak dalam sbb wpun sy belajar jauh2, tapi sy guna pisau besar yg guna utk potong daging tu utk potong epal. Lagipun sbb sy ingat sy terrer sangat. Ukur baju kat badan sapa ntah. Dan sbb sy ingat sy terrer sangat, sy tak guna chopping board, sy pegang epal dgn tangan kiri, pisau tangan kanan. Chop² pastu luka. Padan muka. Takpe, pisau tu tajam gile tak sakit pun. Cuci2, letak plaster dan teruskan membuat breakfast.

Then selepas menyudahkan rutin pagi, sy keluar ke kedai mamak utk get my face shaved. Kamu mesti nk tanya kenapa tak shave sendiri kan?

1. Blade semua dah haus
2. Sbb kadang2 sy shave senget sbb sy agak labu dalam teknik menggunakan cermin dan hari ini agak penting sbb sy ada interview.

Hari ini kali kedua orang letak mata pisau kat leher sy dalam tempoh kurang 2 minggu. Kali ini pisau dia lain sikit. Jap google gambar. Jgn pegi mana²!

Ha ini rupa dia. Tapi kali ni sy yg suruh dia buat mcm tu. Sbb nak shave kan. Ok itu tak penting. Yg penting, lepas sy bayar dia 5rm, sy tgk cermin dan berkata dalam hati "ceh ni aku pakai triple blade lagi licin". Tp of course die handal dan potongannya tidak senget.

Pastu siap2 pegi interview. Harini interviewer itu seorang frenchman. Nama dia Henrique. Here's how it goes.

Henrique: Hi, I'm Henrique. Nice to meet u
Me: Of course u are. I can see that on your tag *smiles* nice to meet u too. I'm [my name here]
Henrique: Good observation. How r u?
Me: Cava bien, et toi?

I'd like to think I've had him there. Hehe. And then lepas abis sesi interview, when the conductor nak tag2 pintu keluar utk aku dia ckp "awk dah dapat dah post ni" sy pun reply dgn excitednye "wah ye ke? tq tq" pastu borak2 sikit.

Thing is, minggu lepas sy tukar ringtone sy dan lepas tu everything is good. I think I'm lucky.

Ya lagu ringtone sy ialah lagu Jason dan Caillat itu.

P/s: Although red is very seductive, sometimes good old orange polka dots wins the day :)

Little paws

2008-10-04T21:28:00.001+08:00

Berlari2 dengan baju raya? How absurd is that? I'm in.

quadruplet

2008-09-29T07:15:00.003+08:00

Tak tahu mana nak mulakan. Hari itu mmg malang gila.

Pagi2 pukul 7 ialah masa aku baca email. Email pagi tu berbunyi begini "Thank you for your interest in the position of Software Developer I (Graduate Apprenticeship Program). We have thoroughly reviewed your resume. Whilst your qualifications are impressive, we regret that we are unable to invite you for an interview as the competition has been very high."

Tapi, 2 hari sebelum itu email die kata suruh datang interview. So I ignored the email and got ready anyway. Conscience says its not a bad idea to call them up and clarify the situation. So I called them and say "yo man, u guys mailed me last tuesday calling me up for an interview n I wake up this morning reading I'm not qualified for the position? What gives?" (no it didn't sound anything like that but u get the picture). The fella at the other end asked my name and so I gave it to them to which he answered "yeah right right we have u on the list. Hafiz Khairi kan?" I said no and corrected him. His colleague said "eh that (my name here) guy was unavailable when I contacted him last tuesday". A few more exchanges later baru la diorang affirmative kata mmg aku patut datang interview. Ok jadi aku datang la interview tu.

Ringkasan sesi interview:
All the other candidates don't look like they have what it takes. Though it'd be a pleasant surprise to see any of them in the 2nd stage other than the girl Siti Nurmala and the boy Muhd Hishamuddin (yes I got through to the 2nd stage). The others were too nervous to even start a decent conversation with each other. The guy next to me was too shy to even tell me his about his college. The interviewer said they're looking for people who can communicate + some attitude, this guy doesn't impress me the slightest.

Interviewer tu appreciate aku kaw =D

Lepas interview aku amik adik aku kat uitm, and went berbuka dgn kwn aku Nurul Aain Ismail di PJ jalan 13/4 ape nama kedai tu aku lupa tapi agak nice. Dan price dia agak shockingly affordable. Aku tak amik plak gambar2 makanan tu macam rakan2 lain yg suke mengambil gambar waktu berbuka. Partly because I don't own a dslr, 2ndly because I don't own a camera.

This is where it went downhill. On my way back home, aku dah rasa dah minyak kereta aku tak berape nk banyak, tp aku tak sure mana stesen minyak. After a few turns, kereta aku give up masa tgh uphill, about 20m after this traffic light. Kalau aku belok kiri kat traffic light tadi, ada stesen minyak within 40m (dan jalan yg landai, bukan uphill). So there I was, minyak habis kat tempat yg walking distance dengan stesen minyak, tapi uphill. Nasib baik la Nurul Aain belum jauh lagi jadi call dia utk bantuan. 3 trips and 21rm worth of fuel later, barulah kereta aku dapat start. Ada satu kereta bodoh ni bawak laju dan sangat dekat dengan aku yg tgh tuang minyak dalam kereta. Kalau die langgar aku da innalillah da. So we said goodbyes and aku teruskan perjalanan pulang.

Along the way aku nampak 1 petrol station so aku berenti la nak basuh tangan. Masa ni aku notice tayar kereta aku takde angin. Aku try pam tapi rupanya tayar tu bocor. Haish! Dah la minyak habis tadi skarang tayar bocor pula. Tapi aku isi jugak la angin seberape dapat. Made a mental note to pegi tukar tayar esoknya (dan aku dah tukar da pun skarang).

Selamat sampai dirumah, aku roger faliq ckp aku da sampai rumah.

Pastu pegi lepak jap, masa nak beli lauk sahur, aku tak tahan gile nak kencing so aku suh faliq berenti kat stesen minyak Shell ni. The urinal sangat kotor sampai aku kena masuk cubicle. Dah setel sume bende2 aku nak kuar je dari cubicle tu, aku bukak pintu sikit je ade mamat ni tgh tunggu kat luar. Die pun tolak pintu tu tangan kanan die pegang tengkuk aku, tangan kiri dia yg memegang kerambit mengacukan kerambit itu ke tengkuk aku juga. Dia kata "jgn bising, bagi ape yg kau ade" die pun tolak aku masuk dalam sikit dan kunci pintu. Aku pun fikir "fon dalam keter, baik aku bagi je ape yg ade kang tak pasal2 innalillah pulak. Dah la duit 17rm je tak berbaloi". Muke mamat tu desperate gile. Aku dah bagi duit ngan wallet, die mintak handphone. Aku ckp handphone takde die bengang gile mesti tak percaya ade org yg takde handphone zaman skarang ni. Dia mintak aku kunci kereta. Aku ckp takde jugak. Die check2 poket aku semua bende takde. Pastu die pun beredar sambil mengugut aku "kau keluar aku potong kepala kau". So aku stay dalam tu sampai dengar bunyik motor die aku pun keluar (ade kawan die tunggu atas motor). Gile betul dalam 1 malam aku ada 2 peluang utk kehilangan nyawa.

Lebih kurang macam ni la rupa kerambit tu. Panjang dalam 6 inci.

Aku pun pegi beli makanan sahur utk famili aku dan lepas sahur aku tidur. Pagi ni aku ada interview dgn Shell, tapi aku batalkan sbb nak buat report polis dan sebagainye. Lepas aku pegi buat report polis tu, aku pun pegi la pejabat pos sbb aku nak collect parcel. Ha parcel ni kejadian malang bertimpa2 no 4 dalam tempoh kurang 24 jam. Parcel tu ialah surat dari Petroliam Nasional Berhad kate "sad to say ur appeal utk tarik balik status breach of contract telah ditolak dan disini kami lampirkan plan pembayaran semula hutang sebanyak RM77,307.00 dalam tempoh 9 tahun."

Ha amik kau panjang gile post aku. Ntah sape baca sampai habis ntah. Petang tu aku dapat call dari Dell kata "congrats, u've passed stage 1. We'd like to meet u for 2nd stage on 8th october."
Aku nak berehat jap nanti la aku cerita lagi.

Aku, penggemar perhatian

2008-09-29T06:47:00.000+08:00

Puas hati kau skarang?

Tentang perkara no 7

2008-09-22T14:19:00.003+08:00

Aku kena tag dgn diyana. Kenapa skarang musim tagging kah? Tema ialah no. 7

7 things about me u'd like to hate (7 facts about me)

1. Sy cinta radiohead
2. Sy tak pandai sebut red, head, bed, u know, problem dgn 'ed'
3. Sy kuat menjawab
4. Sy so full of sy-self
5. Sy seorang egotis
6. Sy suka ais krim
7. Pinggang saiz 32, neck 16, kepala 22.5 (untuk songkok), jari 17-18, kaki saiz 8

7 things that turn my heart outside in (7 perkara menakutkan saya)

1. Infertility
2. ED
3. Naik motor dengan kelajuan lebih 200km/h
4. Berdepan dengan ular
5. Mendengar bunyi ular dari belakang
6. Bermimpi ular dan merasakan seakan2 mmg ade ular sebelah aku yg sedang tidur
7. Kematian thom yorke

7 lagu yg memberikan aku inspirasi (7 current favourite songs)

1. Radiohead

nice dream
paranoid android
black star
everything in the right place
reckoner
Just
2+2=5

2. Yuna - deeper conversation
3. Skunk anansie - weak
4. Postal service - such great heights, be still my heart
5. Kimya dawson - tire swing
6. Bittersweet - kucing hitam
7. Turin brakes - feeling oblivion

maaf tentang radiohead itu. mcm cheating kan?

7 perkataan yg digunakan secara repetitive olehku (7 words I say all the time)

1. OMG (dgn nada bitchy)
2. uh huh
3. Ok
4. kannn
5. Demit
6. Ok
7. takleh

7 things I depend on to make my day (7 benda2 yg bernilai utk sy)

1. Kawan2 rapat
2. Family
3. Kawan2 casual
4. Henfon sy
5. Kucing sy
6. Stack of pictures (zaman belum digital, zaman gila2 remaja)
7. Souvenirs yg terkumpul bertahun2 dari org2 tersayang (bukan exgf)

7 pertama kali dalam hidup (7 first time in my life)

1. Flight - 1996
2. Regret - 2001 (lepas amik result spm. hahahaha)
3. Eksiden - 2001 (lepas amik result spm, kawan aku langgar aku)
4. Exhibitionism - 2002 - skinny dipping at teluk batik pastu siap ada budak bangang amik gamba. I still have the pic to prove it.
5. Broke a bone in my body - 1996 left arm
6. Bergaduh dan menang - 1997 dgn budak yg tinggi dari aku so tumbukan aku semua menyinggah di dagu dia.
7. Smoke - 1997 isap rokok marlboro pening2.

7 orang bertuah yg memenangi tag utk menjawab soalan2 diatas.
Oh don't bother

Tag lag lack back black

2008-09-16T17:33:00.002+08:00

Hurm. Kena tag. Kalini betul2 punya. Jadi berusahalah aku.

i) 1st airplane ride

1996 - aku pergi ke tanah suci membuat umrah. Pastu sbb aku bijak laksana merpati, aku tertinggal spek aku kat transit airport masa solat subuh.

ii) 1st time overseas

Sama la ngan atas tu. Pastu sampai2 sane "fuuh sejuknya pilot ckp tadi 16 darjah celsius" konon2 sejuk sangat la padehal duk lam bilik aircond pun leh je sampai suhu tu.

iii) 1st time living away from your family

1996 jugak. Masa tu aku masuk boarding school. Tgk diorang nk blah tinggal aku sorang2 tu ada rasa hiba sikit la. But I didn't cry ok. Broke my arm in the 1st month.

iv) 1st time i had a real job

Belum lagi. Kerja2 aku cuma part time je so far.

v) 1st time i felt i was fat

Must be in standard 5 camtu kot. Tapi takde aar gemuk mana chubby aar sket kot. Pastu pegi skolah asrama ok balik. Masa aku form 3 berat aku 50kg je. Pastu form 4 aku duk 2 bulan solid kat rumah masa transition between schools, thats where I gain back my kgs.

vi) 1st time in love

Form 2. Her name is effy from this school in Ipoh. Her boobs were phenomenal. Then when I transferred to KL, we kept in touch a bit promised to take her around if she comes to KL, but never did happen because she got married after school.

vii) 1st time i felt i was beautiful

1999 when two girls from my class asked why I have perfect complexion and then they started to use goat's milk soap too. haha. Met Ira recently she asked whether I'm still using it (ya aku tahu muka aku tak cantik skarang) and she told me to use it.

viii) 1st time at the cinema

It was the movie barbed wire featuring siapa tah sex symbol masa tu. Kat this cineplex in ipoh (skarang dah takde dah tempat tu) tiket dia 5rm je masa tu.

ix) 1st time admitted in hospital

admit = confess? haha. no i've never been admitted but i've been sent there twice for fractured n broken bones. It sucks when u break ur left hand. Ok la still can write and whatever tapi bila berak camane?

ha ada 1 soalan aku padam sbb tak relevan kepada semua org yg aku akan tag kejap lagi nih. Masalahnya ada 5 org je yg baca blog aku. Sorang dah tag aku. Cemane nih. Ok skarang kamu semua pegi tulis sbb kamu2 sudah kena tag.

1. Diyana
2. Rookie
3. Dihar
4. suckerluv
5. urm.. ntah!

Hatsu butai

2008-09-16T03:36:00.003+08:00

Hatsu butai is Japanese.

Disclaimer: I'm writing this with good intentions and if by any means did I hurt anyone during this whole entry, I sincerely apologize.

I want to make something clear. Since the post "rookie hunter" u've given names to the character like rookie, kiddo, junior and the likes. And presumptuous questions like "are u and junior an item now?" or "so u're going to date the kiddo again?" pops up occasionally. The answer is no (if u asked date as in considering the other person as a potential mate, but yes if the date in question is just spending some time together enjoying each others' company).

First things first. The reason I came up with rookie hunter is because I've forgotten that she is a kid until she comes up with "did u know I can't get into HRC?". That struck me like a reminder that I don't go out with or acknowledge anyone of her age. Simply because of their track record for being ignorantly devoid of making proper and logical decisions. I wrote it to acknowledge that she is an interesting person despite being the alien from a planet I hated.

Interesting doesn't usually lead to sexually or emotionally interested. Now don't get me wrong. She's aesthetically attractive to say the least. It's just that not every person u meet are supposed to wind up under your bedsheets.

And since we're on this topic, I declare that I haven't yet decided where this is going, but at least for now, let me come with my hands free and my heart undecided.

I rarely fail to read a character and here's how I read her.

She don't carry excessive baggage around and she's obscenely nonjudgmental in getting to know me. It's like being in a place where no one knows me although a lot of people she knows can or already wrote a warning on me. Either that, or she's very gullible. Or I'm the gullible one. I'm willing to take my chances.

On a fair note, if I have to rate this relationship, I'd give it more than moderately interesting for the fact that she cried the 2nd time we hung out for no apparent reason and also for the fact she's the only girl living outside of 20km radius who's willing to take a detour of an hour to send me home. This is becoming very lengthy.

To conclude, please drop these gossips about me and the rookie as I don't think one needs to be sexually motivated or emotionally attached to enjoy another persons' company. Pardon me for writing this, but I really need to get this off my chest.

I'm the guy who believes that whatever can go wrong will go wrong. That's why I'm being overly cautious over this.

Batman dan panties ajaib.

2008-09-15T15:19:00.007+08:00

Sebenarnye mmg sy nak tulis pasal batman dan panties ajaib ni pun. Tp awk kena tunggu sy sortkan list tu dulu lah sbb sy terbace blog jebon dan die tag semua orang (aci ke tag semua orang) dan terpaksa lah sy pun buat bende 15 rambang mata ni.

15 perkara tentang aku.

1. Aku fikir lebih lama dari 15 minit utk jawapan no 1 ni.

2. Aku benci orang2 yg aku tak kenal. Dan lebih2 lagi kalau diorang budak2. Dan juge lebih lagi bila diorang budak2 dan diorang perempuan. Sbb kenapa aku benci org yg aku tak kenal sbb aku tak kenal cara diorang berfikir dan aku stereotype diorang semua sebagai bodoh. Kenape aku lebih tak suke budak2 sbb kalau aku tak kenal die, dan die juge budak2, maknenye probability utk dia berlaku bodoh lebih tinggi. Dan girls lebih prone utk berbuat bende2 bodoh dan gile. Jgn argue. At least bende bodoh yg budak lelaki buat agak cool.

3. Aku dah malas nak tulis list ni. Jadi aku nak tulis pasal batman dan panties ajaib.

BATMAN DAN PANTIES AJAIB

Actually tajuk tu misleading. Argument ialah batman atau superman punya logo yg berbentuk seperti panties? Aku kata Superman. And while we're at it, look at the Pavilion KL floor plan. Something is terribly wrong here. Wait till u get to level 3. It gets much worse. Kan kan kan?? Hey don't blame me, blame the architect dude. I'm sure he's horny when he draws the Pavy.

Ok itu saja tentang Batman dan Panties. Now to the ajaib part.

3 bulan lepas, aku kenal dengan seorang budak perempuan ni. Dia:

1. Went to school with my brother

2. Is a friend of my friends' wifes' sister. She arrived at the engagement reception after I left.

3. Knows my closest buddies. Close macam radhie punya close.

4. One of her best friends went out with a friend of mine (quite close) make that two. Two of her close friends dated my close friends. (at least that i'm aware of)

4.1 And that friend of hers brought friends to my event (which dengan ajaibnya is the 1 event yg kawan2 dia gagal bawak dia skali)

5. Subsequently went to an event with my friends (dan dengan ajaibnya aku tak join event tu)

6. We were at the same party once, I was attending her housemate punya birthday party and I remembered her friends quite well and she knows who I came with but apart from that, I don't remember seeing her there, and neither did she. (the photos from the party mysteriously disappeared)

7. Went out with a guy who is a part of a 'couple' and guess what, I went out with the girl part of the 'couple'.

That's being lazy. I'm sure if we were to dig deeper, there's a lot more relation than we expect.

I'm sure I heard her name from a lot of my friends before. I'm dead sure the girl from the couple asked me to browse her pictures (which I dengan malasnya tak tgk pun tapi ckp dah tgk) and my best girl friend mentioned her (which I couldn't care less) and "uh-huh"ed to whatever she says. Until 3 months back, we could've crossed each other hundreds of time and in her own words "macammana ntah u boleh invisible selama2 ni pastu skarang tibe2 ada je pulak" ok aku tak ingat ayat penuh dia tapi lebih kurang mcm tu la. Or was it "macammana ntah u boleh invisible selama2 ni pastu skarang significant pulak". eheh. Mane satu nih?

Tapi ayat kawan dia takleh blah "si hantu tu mmg someone yg u tak patut kenal pun".

Human connection is interesting.

8. Oh ye sengal gile aku tak tulis. Dah tentu2 kami belajar di tempat yg sama (at least sebelum convo sempat gak kan kite lepak kat car park tu haritu. hahaha)

Feeding Friends-y

2008-09-15T01:41:00.005+08:00

1st of all, if I don't say this, I wonder how many of u will get it. I know rookie won't get it. Sea-girl might get it, little chinese girl who is actually a malay and probably does look like my mom a bit might pretend she got it before I said this although I know she scrolled back up and re-read it, the girl caught by fever will not notice it and I don't think suckerluv will care much about this entry's title. OMG I have like 5 readers!! This has to be the lamest blogs around. There I've said it. Rookie is still wondering what the hell I've said. How many read that "feeding frenzy" instead of "feeding friends why".

I decided to do something unusual today; to write everything that comes to mind (only if I remembered to jot it down in the 1st place).

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mane henfon?
spek mcm tinggal kat bilik sebelah tadi. nantilah amik.
kalau pasang air cond skali ngan kipas ni boleh sambung tido balik.
n1 hujan!
narkolepsi tu apa?
apa ni hari2 ade berita org kena semelih ni.
kenapa la isap rokok batal puasa. bukan kenyang pun. takpe sabar je.
kalau aku buat2 tak tau tapi sebenarnye aku nak ambil tahu, adekah aku pretentious?
mane tah aku letak henfon tadi. takde org nak call ke harini?
pukul berape dah ni?
ok kool sikit lagi boleh berbuka.
rokok ade berape batang lagi ntah.
esok la terawih.
power gak stoke city nih.
ira join minum malam ni? 8 tahun tak jumpa (padehal rumah boleh jalan kaki pegi)
hmm good to see nothing changed.
Oh boleh cecah kaki eh. balik kang nak tgk yoga kat utube lah.
alamak semua ingat semua cerita. harap2 takde cerite yg memalukan keluar.
lewat dah ni bila nak balik (OMG LEWAT KE PUKUL 12??)
ok semua benda dah tulis boleh fikir blog title.
Apa yg pun-sy mcm konon2 aku leh jadi journalist?
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haha. Tu je bende yg aku fikir dan sempat teringat nak tulis masa aku fikir harini. Oh ye. I know being my friend is an effort on its own. I wonder if I had not been myself, would I befriend myself? Just a thought.

yay 1st colorful entry.

Helium

2008-09-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

Dulu aku ada satu invisible vios courtesy of sponsor aku (petroliam nasional berhad). Maksud aku, student loan aku. Aku kena bayar balik RM77337.00 sebagai tanda terima kasih tak terhingga kerana membenarkan aku belajar di sekolah diorang dan juge u know, kadang2 diorang bagi duit dulu. 3 bulan skali diorang injek akaun aku ngan RM1500. Lepas 5 tahun total dia jadi lah byk tu. Byk kan? .

2 minggu lepas aku pegi la balik sekolah aku tu kan sbb nak amik sijil tamat sekolah. Pastu akak tu bagi aku supucuk surat. Lucky gila aku kan dalam 1 weekend bende2 yg tak pernah jadi kat aku berlaku. 1) dapat 2 bukit bunga (bukit baca dalam bahasa inggeris) dan 2) dapat surat cinta.

Pembetulan: no 2) tu tak berlaku. Surat tu rupanya ransom note yg meminta tebusan sebanyak "RM19997.00 kalau mahu sijil anda selamat". Suspek ialah pihak finance sekolah aku dulu. Ha aku tau kawan2 perempuan aku (yg aku malas nak sebutkan nama disini) mesti akan kate

1. Gilfren kawan aku : "Ya Allah apesal kau ignorant sangat sampai taktau petronas dah tak bayar yuran kau. Sekarang kau call diorang, dan clarify things betul2. Interview petronas dah pegi belum? Ish kau ni"

2. Kawan aku : "Tu lah awk hate to say i told u so" (sebenarnye mmg dia tak ckp so dulu tapi u know, girls being girls mesti akan ckp dulu dia da ckp da. pfft)

3. Kawan aku lagi sorang : "Dah call diorang ke? (diorang ialah pihak2 berkenaan) Byk gila oi cemana nak bayar ni. Pegi setelkan dengan diorang. Jgn degil oi"

Tapi kwn2 lelaki aku akan kate "Pergh byk sial. Takpe rilek mesti ade jalan". And u wonder why bila aku ada problem ngan kawan aku, kawan tu most probably perempuan. Jawapan: my guy friends are cool and its okay for me to say this because they don't read this.

Kepada kawan2 perempuan yg disayangi sekalian. Jangan risau. Pasti ada cara. Aku akan fikirkan cara tu lepas abis isap rokok ni.

Jaga diri jangan nakal2 kalau berada di lautan.

Rookie hunter

2008-09-04T13:18:00.003+08:00

I will never go out with a girl who can't get into HRC.

I remember when we were 19. We were so stupid back then we could've died a couple of times. And the girls were so emotional and stupid it was crazy. So if I could summarize the whole teenage experience, I would call it the golden age of stupidity. That's why I keep my distance from them. I don't hang out with my cousins because they are all in that range. 18-22s.

I lost interest in public gigs is because of them. 18-22s. So if u're still under-aged, no thanks I'm not interested.

I mean everyone except babe.

p/s: u laugh funny.

Nickel

2008-08-06T19:26:00.003+08:00

It must be cold in here cause I can see your nickels.

That, or, it might be because I'm not wearing anything.

Yerp. There's always that.

Not everyone appreciate my bad puns. And most of the statements I utter are barely useful for anyone at any time. Know me long enough and you would notice that I don't give you answers, but I'd answer if u ask me.

We talked about this. About my habit of venting useless and random answers to a conversation. Did we conclude with me being useless? Or was it you who coined the term 'loser statement'. I don't remember which is which. But I do wish the world could be lighter.

All in favor please raise your hands

2008-07-30T15:02:00.003+08:00

Winner is king and the sea is comforting.

Every time I do this, I will be stuck here. Right after the first line.
Every time, I turn and light my cigarette. Right after that first line (oh hey this is the 3rd line).

Being a smoker isn't easy. It's not like its' always daisies and hurricanes. We have our bad days too. Like this morning when I flipped my ciggie box to find out I still have 6 sticks left. I lost my point. So anyway, being a smoker, we have to make decisions like to smoke, or to brush teeth first. As u see, smoking doesn't go too well with teeth brushing. It is impossible to do both at the same time. It's right up there with walking a tight barbed wire. Impossible for most, but some crazy fxxxker will do it. Then there's the complex situation where u're nearly done with ur lit ciggie and u felt like taking a crap. Everyone knows a smoker will smoke while in the crapper. If u're done with the ciggie and then u need a crapper, u don't always want to light up another one just so u could go and do the thing. Way I see it, choose between taking the crap (and lighting another ciggie) or wait until u feel like ur lungs have some space for tobacco smoke.

Life is full of making choices for the smoker. U think it's easy? Why don't u give it a try then. U'll see what I mean.

When our conscious kicks in, we feel like quitting. But as they say, quitters are losers. Now u're stuck between being a quitter, and being someone who smells nice and have a higher chance to avoid cancer. More often than not, I'll take the cancer out of the equation. I mean, who are we kidding? We're raised in a society where we'll get cancer whether we like it or not. Our lifestyle dictates that at some point in our life, the doc will say "u have [put in an organ here] cancer". It's in our food, air and everything else. We can't outrun cancer. That leaves us with being a quitter, or someone who smells nice and overall pleasurable to be around with. I'm just making that up. We do consider quitting. Just not seriously.

As an analogy, think about marriage. We do consider getting married at some point in our life. But so long as we remain single and kicking, we don't normally consider it very seriously. Marriage has a lot more in common with smoking than u initially think. In marriage, sometimes we consider quitting. In marriage, it's not going to always be easy. There's choices to be made, decisions to come to. The biggest common thing about smoking and marriage, is commitment. Think about it. Think really hard and u'll understand that.

In the end, there will be one winner. U, cancer, or ur significant other. The choice is not necessarily yours. Good luck.

Winner is king and the sea, well, sometimes its moody and sometimes its calm. And sometime, it will let u forget all the trouble in the world.

By the way, ladies, please check ur breasts regularly for your own good.

Am i

2008-07-28T03:35:00.002+08:00

I'm too tired I can't sleep. That's where the two posts below comes from. In case u were wondering, the two posts is for two very different people. I have a lot of patching up to do, but I no longer provide free services. I need for us to meet in the middle from now on. I'll stay there and if u'll come, u'll come. If u don't, then i'm here.

I have friends that I have left in the dark empty space behind my mind. When I know u cared, I'm split between glad and guilt. Thank you for reminding me.

Aku google las nubes

2008-07-28T03:09:00.003+08:00

Aku baru balik dr tioman. Baru dapat masa utk luangkan catch up dgn blog rakan2. Tak tahu mana nak mulakan, tapi sini perkara2 penting.

1. How a Taurus and a Virgo can have the same traits is tak tercapai akalku. Atau kita sama2 bebal? Aku cakap pasal kau kate aku patut faham kau, tp aku sedang harap kau faham aku. In the end aku still x faham perlu ke bangga bila kite kenal someone? We're not in college dan masa belajar pun aku x faham konsep tu. Adekah aku perlu jaja nama kawan2 aku? Adekah aku akan memenangi jam tangan berjenama? Tuduhan x masuk akal.

2. Kau adelah antara org2 favourite aku. Kalau x ade ke logik aku keluar dari kerja awal semata2 nk layan kau pegi potong rambut bile kau sedih? Ye kau byk kekurangan tapi ade ke org yg perfect. Dulu aku suke tgk kau sbb kau cantik. Sekarang aku suke berkawan dgn kau sbb kau penuh dengan cacat cela yg fun. U make me feel at home. Dan dulu mungkin aku xkan admit. Tp kau sibodoh aku dan aku sibodoh kau.

3. Relationship atau persahabatan (perkataan yg digunakan utk mengelakkan tuduhan atau salah sangka) kita mmg byk cacat cela. Tp aku suke imperfections ni. Aku x perlu jadi sesiapa depan kau. Aku x perlu impress. Aku x perlu berada dalam kawalan. Kecuali mungkin mase birthday kau yg aku perlu behave sikit. Tp itu sehari dalam setahun. Mungkin 2-3 jam setahun.

4. Kau ego. Ye aku pun ego. Kan aneh utk taurus sama dgn virgo?

5. Ye aku tetap akan pilih kau 80 kali dari dia. Tapi kau nak jugak nombor tujuh. Jadi aku pilih kau 7 kali dari dia.

6. Kau ni bodoh kalau kau rase aku compare kau dgn dia. Kau tahu aku benci semua org. Tp kalau org itu ok, aku terima dia sebagai dia. Bila aku compare, aku compare action, bukan individual traits. Aku faham kalau kau marah2 sbb aku pun rasa aku silap.

7. I still owe u ur cake. Now can we get back to how we were?

8 ialah suatu magic number. 8 ialah bulan aku konvo. 8 ialah bulan kau pergi jauh2?

9. No fevret aku. X siape tahu kot 9 ialah favret aku. Account LJ aku start ngan no 9.

Kalau kau ego, teruskan. Kalau kau rase kite mean something, call aku lepas kau bace ni. Kalau kau x call, aku assume kau x bace, atau kau ego. Aku boleh terime due due.

Sunburns and freezerburn

2008-07-28T00:00:00.003+08:00

Any of our decisions are made of only two choices. By choice, or by force. Technically you can choose to force yourself if one was so inclined, but that is not the issue here. By choice, or by force. After all things are simplified within the boundaries of these two reasons, the question which I would like to ask is, if we choose to forget, what if we want it back? Is it as simple as unlocking a treasure box or is it as complicated as the theory of relativity? And since when is unlocking a treasure box a simple task?

Let us then factor another element in the equation. The other element. If that which we forget doesn't only belong to us, can we fix what we've done? Is it fair that we only get one chance to get it right or blow it? No I don't believe in second chances. Cause chances are, we've already soiled the 1st attempt and any illusion of 2nd chances are only that; illusions. People are never good at forgiving. First time wary, 2nd time careful. We never honestly give anyone a 2nd chance. Not with a clean sheet. Of course those are merely my opinion and as always, I could be wrong.

I possess a heart of a kid. I only noticed it today.

I have all these feelings but I lack empathy. I care, but I don't empathize. The emotions of other people doesn't really play a part in my decisions. My selfish heart beats in the chaotic motion summed by Brown's Law. It tells how other people should feel when subjected to a situation and that is wrong. People react differently to chemicals and why should they react the same way to emotions? Barring all unique cases, we all have the same reaction towards certain elements such as fire. We all burn.

You said I shouldn't expect people to behave the same way. I say we all burn. Of course some situations allow us to behave differently towards other people, but since we all burn, freeze and get exhausted, we all should also be able to learn and follow the simple rules of respect and reciprocate. Won't you agree this time?

I'm sorry. I've been expecting too much in such a short time. I've been unfair. Now will you let go of it and you know, maybe call me?

Whats that u ask? That's my ego shattering.

Pro(s)per

2008-07-20T22:25:00.004+08:00

My 2 feet is firmly planted on the ground.

June has got to be the shittiest month for the year. A lot has been happening up until now. Towards July, the shit just won't stop. I'm just glad I've managed to get everything done in time for graduation. But not to worry, as I said, now my 2 feet are both on the ground and my 2 favorite phrases are "He won't give u shit u can't handle" and "if God doesn't discriminate, why should i".

Don't get me wrong. I know u know I'm not the religious type and maybe it just crossed your mind that "eleh bila susah ingat tuhan". Salah. Aku selalu ingat Dia. Cuma cara aku fahami Dia berbeza dari kau kau orang. Yes I'm not the religious type. But I am always out there putting Him into perspective. I'm crazy. Don't argue. This is not blasphemy.

So in short, what have I been through in June?

1. Lost someone dear.
2. Make that two.
3. Or three. I lost count.

People have a tendency to hate. I don't hate u, I just don't want to waste time with you anymore. And some people are paranoid. I called u up because I thought we were friends and you go accusing me of something I've never dreamed up. I hate to argue about things I don't do. Some things are facts and some are.. u know.. (put in a word that is the opposite of fact/concrete).

Fact #1: I DO care damnit.
Fact #2: I don't care damnit.

So please, before u call me up and put me in a situation where u want to accuse me of something, think again and don't do it. I used to think we're cool. Now I think u're too vain.

Someone else said she gave up on planning. And every time I call u up, u have a plan. (yes Leo that's u and I'm not accusing u of anything).

I gave up on planning. Try me.

Move

2008-07-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

I know the sign says "do not lean on doors" but how about "DON'T FCUKING LEAN ON OTHER PEOPLE"??

Don't people appreciate other peoples' spaces anymore?

Yeah, thought so too.

Treason

2008-07-09T10:51:00.003+08:00

If two people cannot be in love forever, then I have lost my faith in people.

Without love there will be no hate and without hate there could be no love.

Emotionally retarded

2008-07-04T11:26:00.000+08:00

We're both retarded

For each other

Why is this hard

We're spending time being scared

When we should be in each others arms

Orgy

2008-07-03T04:07:00.004+08:00

The girl in red is a pole dancer. She's not the best, but she does her job. And others don't complain. It's not easy to dance with other people sharing her pole.

The whole thing is a traveling circus. Their souls sold to the big guy who's pulling all the strings; calling all the shots.

It's easy to turn a blind eye on things when u're paid enough money. Wait, even when u're not paid enough money as long as u get paid. I can never be amazed enough. We're so cheap.

The couple danced to their theme at their own pace. No one complains. No one really cared. I listened. This is where everyone is a performer of sorts. Dressed in their reds and pinks and blues and blacks.

I've been to and on this show for a while now. I think I like them now. The pole dancers, lap dancers, accountants, technicians, watchers, young and senior executives, thieves, magicians and all sorts of people.

U missed the show? The next one comes in 3-6 minutes. Please catch the morning shows. The evening one stinks. And in between, its just a rail transport. I'm on it for most but 2 of the first stations.

As usual, please stand behind the yellow line and do mind the gap. Thank you

Blocks' sweet potato pie

2008-07-02T19:23:00.001+08:00

that's not it

2008-07-02T14:58:00.001+08:00

update: my hair is red

white ink

2008-06-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

Done my presentation today. It didn't went well I suppose. I'm wearing my black n stripes pants. The one without the crease. And you think girls can enhance their sexual appearance by wearing them g-strings. We can pump up our ego too you know?

I smoke 30 minutes before the presentation. On my smoking run, a fellow engineer from another dept joined me (I practice to tolerate people). He asked of my plans after I'm done with Shell. I laid out the imaginary blue-print that shows nothing but 2 options in his face. He drew out a line in a solid white imaginary ink.

"Why don't you ask your tech lead if your service is still needed. That way he can offer you a new contract. Your teams' project is nearing completion. Don't you want to see how it ends?"

In a big explosion followed by blue and silver lights, a gargantuan team of a thousand dancers. The works. If that's how they signal the end, yeah sure.

He then whispered "The budget is big. Contract workers don't get benefits, but the pay is better than other fresh grads"

Just what I need to finance my dream of owning a Neo R3.

It shocked me a tiny bit that you have no heart at all. Everything in its right place.

What happens on a friday

2008-06-16T19:10:00.003+08:00

I have a lot to write, but I'm gradually losing the interest to do so. I'm going to share a few pictures instead.

I was sleeping in the back. I remember waking up to screeching tyres and the thoughts "we're going to crash" runs through my mind. Not in a screaming and panicked way, but more like a whisper that suggests realization and acceptance that we are indeed going to crash. Instinctively I wrap my head in my arms like a protective headlock. In 2 seconds the sound was like "Screeeeeech.Crash.Boom.Pshhhhhhhhhhh". I got up, find my glasses, get out of the car, light a cigarette and begin taking pictures.

Yesterday I baked 2 cakes. Both are near-successes. One developed very crispy (but not overburnt) crusts that were very nice, the other one turned out like brownies. I'm going to bake more soon. Wish me luck!

How to build a killer robot

2008-05-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

I remember when i was a little kid, around 6-7ish, i thought our heart is dangling on our whatever it is that brings air into the body. It's tied to the pipe that comes from our nose (that takes in the air that we breath). That our body was hollow and there's acid (I know it's acid cause I read it somewhere) at the bottom of our stomach which I pictured like a jar. The acid will digest our food and the gases it made goes up as a burp or down as a fart. Our ribcage is well, a cage that protects our heart. I have no concept of lungs or whatever. Our brain it seems is tied to our hearts.

At least that explains why I feel dizzy and my heartbeat rushes after I spin myself faster and faster trying to beat the earth's revolution in my attempt to speed time and land into the future.

For the record, I always thought I could build killer robots when I grow up. It didn't come true.

My belisha beacon

2008-05-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

I found this on the net. My beacon.

If forever

2008-05-21T06:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Elis,

Where do I begin?

Sometimes I wish u would miss me; think of me for a bit. But u can't help it since u're too busy chasing your dreams and what not. And for the fact that u already have everything u need in ur life. I'm the odd piece of the puzzle. The one u never know where to put. The piece that cannot fit.

I guess it can't be helped. Every relationship is a two way road. The way it works requires us to meet halfway. In this journey I've started in 2003, I've been heading in your direction but I have yet to see u. Maybe its true that the distance to your home is a 100,000km drive. Oh well since u're not talking, I don't think we'll ever find out.

It aches me to think that for all I've done, said and showed in the past couple of years, I'm still a stranger in your life. I imagine myself outside a plush restaurant where the waiter waits outside with me, promised to seat me, while I'm standing out in the cold waiting for a vacant table.

I'm sorry I no longer texted, or called. U know how it is. I just hate to send u a text without knowing when will u reply (it keeps me hanging on the phone, waiting). I hate to call u without knowing if u would answer (screaming infidelities in my head).

I guess I'm no longer needed around u. I think I've shown enough through this years. I hate eventuality. I hate inevitable. But this time, I think it's time u make a move. I think this time, I should wait for ur answer than insist that u should. I'll wait. I'll wait. Be still my heart.

I remember this day last year, I was studying for an exam paper, ready to drive 200km in the wee bit of the morning tomorrow to fetch u from home and send u to the office. Then I waited around until it was lunch time and we went for lunch. If u remembered, in front of my friends I said "The only thing I can give u is myself". And I've walked a steady path to a heartbreak since then.

I can't say what will happen tomorrow. I guess u'll find no room for me.

I'll be here, as I promised. Now it's your turn to make a move. I believe the decision is up to u now. I wish sometimes u would miss me. I guess that's a lot to ask.

Luv,
Mr. I-don't-know-who-I-am

-listening to nada surf - always love and this world fair - don't make me wait

Networking

2008-05-17T17:26:00.004+08:00

we talked and laughed about how we were when we were kids. we talked about who went where and do what. A guy brought his partner and his child. I think this must be a new level right there. Like "hey come join us this weekend (1st level). Bring your partner (2nd level) too!! And your kids (3rd and hopefully the final level). "

It was merely 8 years ago but we can't recall who sit next to whom in class. I remember the first day at school though. We laughed and it was good seeing everyone was doing fine. The joker was still funny. The player dude didn't bring any of his girlfriends. The nice dude ain't getting married anytime soon. The trio has lost one member to marriage, oh and the quartet (lost one to marriage already) will lose another one to engagement tomorrow. Then they'll be left with a pair. Sadly though, they can't marry each other. It won't be right.

I might be going to the engagement tomorrow although they say that engagement is for families only. I don't get the idea. They know it's a family reception, then why bother inviting? If u get invited to an engagement ceremony does it mean they think of u as family? Hmm..

I think I have this annoying habit of using 'we' without mentioning who is 'we'. In this situation, we means a bunch of schoolmates. The other 'we' broke up.